\u00c9g er heppin me\u00f0 skrokk. Heilsuhraust. Fitna ekki nema eiga \u00fea\u00f0 skili\u00f0. \u00c9g s\u00fdni \u00fe\u00f3 sjaldan \u00ed verki a\u00f0 \u00e9g kunni a\u00f0 meta \u00fea\u00f0 og stundum vakna \u00e9g me\u00f0 ver\u00f0skulda\u00f0a lj\u00f3tu. S\u00e9 sj\u00e1lfa mig \u00ed spegli og hugsa oj. \u00deegar \u00feannig stendur \u00e1 er tvennt \u00ed bo\u00f0i; a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a a\u00f0 skvapslytti a\u00f0 gera eitthva\u00f0 \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed. \u00dea\u00f0 lagast ekki me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 hringa sig uppi \u00ed s\u00f3fa me\u00f0 s\u00fakkula\u00f0ikex.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g er heppin. Get afst\u00fdrt flensu me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 sofa n\u00f3g og bor\u00f0a hollan mat. Tveggja vikna trimformpr\u00f3gamm lyftir rassinum upp fyrir hn\u00e9. Eitt sumar \u00ed sundlauginni eyddi viskustykkjunum. Einu sinni t\u00f3k \u00e9g n\u00e1mskei\u00f0 \u00ed magadansi. \u00c9g geng stiga. \u00deetta eru n\u00fa \u00f6ll afrekin.<\/p>\n
\u00deegar \u00e9g geri eitthva\u00f0 nau\u00f0a\u00f3merkilegt til a\u00f0 flikka upp \u00e1 mig, f\u00e6 \u00e9g undantekningarlaust klapp \u00e1 baki\u00f0. „Fr\u00e1b\u00e6rt, \u00e6\u00f0islegt, gott hj\u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r a\u00f0 gera eitthva\u00f0 fyrir sj\u00e1lfa \u00feig.“ Aldrei hefur nokkur ma\u00f0ur liti\u00f0 \u00e1 mig me\u00f0 sam\u00fa\u00f0arsvip og sagt; „j\u00e1 gengur\u00f0u virkilega stiga? Elsku kjellingin, var rassinn \u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r or\u00f0inn svona slyttingslegur? \u00c9g hef einmitt veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 hugsa um hva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa vir\u00f0ist illa \u00e1 \u00feig komin. Hringdu endilega ef \u00feig vantar einhvern til a\u00f0 skokka me\u00f0.“<\/p>\n
\u00c9g hef meira \u00feurft a\u00f0 hafa fyrir andlegri heilsu minni. \u00dea\u00f0 merkir ekki a\u00f0 \u00e9g s\u00e9 sn\u00e6lduge\u00f0veik. Bara a\u00f0 m\u00e9r er h\u00e6ttara vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 leggjast \u00ed heims\u00f3s\u00f3ma en flensu og a\u00f0 einangra mig f\u00e9lagslega en a\u00f0 hlaupa \u00ed spik.<\/p>\n
Stundum ver\u00f0ur s\u00e1lin \u00ed m\u00e9r slyttingsleg og \u00fe\u00e1 hef \u00e9g fari\u00f0 \u00ed nokkra t\u00edma til r\u00e1\u00f0gjafa. Aldrei hefur vi\u00f0m\u00e6landinn upplj\u00f3mast af gle\u00f0i fyrir m\u00edna h\u00f6nd \u00feegar \u00e9g segi a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00e6tli n\u00fa a\u00f0 drusla m\u00e9r \u00ed nokkra t\u00edma til s\u00e1lu. Aldrei hefur nokkur ma\u00f0ur sagt „fr\u00e1b\u00e6rt, \u00e6\u00f0islegt, \u00e9g er einmitt a\u00f0 hugsa um a\u00f0 gera \u00fea\u00f0 l\u00edka.“ \u00devert \u00e1 m\u00f3ti ver\u00f0ur f\u00f3lk \u00e1 svipinn eins og \u00e9g s\u00e9 me\u00f0 Aln\u00e6mi. Algeng vi\u00f0br\u00f6g\u00f0 eru steinrunni\u00f0 andlit og d\u00e6s. „J\u00e1 er b\u00fai\u00f0 a\u00f0 vera svona erfitt hj\u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r. J\u00e6ja, \u00e9g vona a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa n\u00e1ir \u00fe\u00e9r. Hringdu endilega ef vi\u00f0 getum eitthva\u00f0 gert.“<\/p>\n
Af hverju er \u00fea\u00f0 styrkleikamerki a\u00f0 taka \u00e1byrg\u00f0 \u00e1 l\u00edkamlegri heilsu sinni, en veikleikamerki a\u00f0 g\u00e6ta ge\u00f0heilsu sinnar? Af hverju \u00e6tti andleg heilsa a\u00f0 vera fyrirhafnarlaus?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00c9g er heppin me\u00f0 skrokk. Heilsuhraust. Fitna ekki nema eiga \u00fea\u00f0 skili\u00f0. \u00c9g s\u00fdni \u00fe\u00f3 sjaldan \u00ed verki a\u00f0 \u00e9g kunni a\u00f0 meta \u00fea\u00f0 og stundum vakna \u00e9g me\u00f0 ver\u00f0skulda\u00f0a lj\u00f3tu. S\u00e9 sj\u00e1lfa mig \u00ed spegli og hugsa oj. \u00deegar … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa