Treysti \u00e9g \u00fe\u00e9r ekki segir\u00f0u?\u00a0Kannski er \u00fea\u00f0 r\u00e9tt. Kannski treysti \u00e9g engum neitt s\u00e9rstaklega. Enda ekki \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0a til. Og kemur ekki a\u00f0 s\u00f6k \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g er ekki varnarlaust barn og \u00fearf \u00fe.a.l. engum a\u00f0 treysta.<\/p>\n
Hversu margar kvikmyndir og b\u00e6kur skyldu fela \u00ed s\u00e9r s\u00f6mu \u00f3ge\u00f0slegu klisjus\u00f6guna \u00feegar \u00e9g l\u00e6r\u00f0i a\u00f0 hj\u00f3la. Alltaf \u00e1 s\u00f6mu lei\u00f0: pabbi\/mamma st\u00f3\u00f0 fyrir aftan hj\u00f3li\u00f0 og studdi vi\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0, lofa\u00f0i a\u00f0 gr\u00edpa mig ef \u00e9g dytti, og allt \u00ed einu var\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00feess var a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00feurfti ekki \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 halda. M\u00e1li\u00f0 er, \u00e1stin m\u00edn a\u00f0 \u00feegar \u00e9g l\u00e6r\u00f0i a\u00f0 hj\u00f3la st\u00f3\u00f0 enginn fyrir aftan, tilb\u00fainn til a\u00f0 gr\u00edpa mig. Og \u00e9g l\u00e6r\u00f0i \u00fea\u00f0 samt.<\/p>\n
\u00deegar \u00e9g var\u00f0 9 \u00e1ra ba\u00f0 \u00e9g afa og \u00f6mmu a\u00f0 gefa m\u00e9r hj\u00f3l \u00ed afm\u00e6lisgj\u00f6f. Ekki af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 mig langa\u00f0i \u00ed hj\u00f3l. Mig langa\u00f0i \u00ed prinsessukj\u00f3l. \u00dar bleiku silki. Helst me\u00f0 pilsaglennu. En litla systir m\u00edn haf\u00f0i fengi\u00f0 hj\u00f3l \u00ed afm\u00e6lisgj\u00f6f og allir \u00e1ttu hj\u00f3l nema \u00e9g svo einhvernveginn fannst m\u00e9r a\u00f0 mig hlyti a\u00f0 vanta hj\u00f3l l\u00edka. Auk \u00feess vissi \u00e9g a\u00f0 \u00e9g fengi ekki prinsessukj\u00f3l. \u00cd mesta lagi kj\u00f3l sem \u00f6mmu \u00fe\u00e6tti s\u00e6tur og hann yr\u00f0i \u00far b\u00f3mull e\u00f0a flaueli og stelpulegur en ekki me\u00f0 s\u00ed\u00f0u og v\u00ed\u00f0u pilsi og perlusaumu\u00f0u brj\u00f3sti og st\u00f3rri slaufu \u00e1 rassinum. Og \u00f6rugglega ekki pilsaglennu. \u00c9g f\u00e9kk hj\u00f3l. Gr\u00e6nt og me\u00f0 g\u00edrum og alv\u00f6ru l\u00e1s.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g kunni ekki a\u00f0 hj\u00f3la. Haf\u00f0i ekki meiri \u00e1huga \u00e1 hj\u00f3li systur minnar en svo a\u00f0 \u00e9g haf\u00f0i aldrei pr\u00f3fa\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 nema einu sinni me\u00f0 hj\u00e1lpardekkjum. Sem h\u00fan var l\u00f6ngu b\u00fain a\u00f0 sleppa. Mitt var me\u00f0 hj\u00e1lpardekkjum en \u00e9g var of fullor\u00f0in til a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta sj\u00e1 mig \u00e1 hj\u00f3li me\u00f0 hj\u00e1lpardekkjum svo \u00e9g t\u00f3k \u00feau strax af. Og svo f\u00f3r \u00e9g a\u00f0 hj\u00f3la. \u00c9g datt. Aftur og aftur.<\/p>\n
\u00c1 fj\u00f3r\u00f0a degi var \u00e9g enn ekki b\u00fain a\u00f0 n\u00e1 t\u00f6kum \u00e1 listinni a\u00f0 hj\u00f3la. Var enn\u00fe\u00e1 s\u00eddettandi og dau\u00f0hr\u00e6dd. Og grenjandi af rei\u00f0i yfir \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 geta ekki \u00fea\u00f0 sama og \u00f6ll sm\u00e1b\u00f6rn \u00ed hverfinu. \u00c9g vissi hva\u00f0 var a\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 var ekkert a\u00f0 hj\u00f3linu og \u00fea\u00f0 var ekkert a\u00f0 m\u00e9r. \u00c9g var bara of hr\u00e6dd. Veistu hva\u00f0 \u00e9g ger\u00f0i? Heldur\u00f0u a\u00f0 \u00e9g hafi fari\u00f0 til m\u00f6mmu og be\u00f0i\u00f0 um hj\u00e1lp? Einhvern til a\u00f0 standa fyrir aftan og gr\u00edpa mig. Nei, \u00fea\u00f0 ger\u00f0i \u00e9g ekki. Af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00feurfti ekki \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 halda a\u00f0 treysta \u00e1 einhvern annan en sj\u00e1lfa mig. \u00deess \u00ed sta\u00f0 l\u00e9t \u00e9g mig gossa ni\u00f0ur Brekkug\u00f6tu. \u00de\u00fa \u00feekkir Brekkug\u00f6tu \u00e1 Akureyri. H\u00fan er mj\u00f6g br\u00f6tt. Ekki heppilegur \u00e6fingasta\u00f0ur fyrir byrjanda sem dettur \u00e1 jafnsl\u00e9ttu. En \u00e9g var heldur ekki a\u00f0 \u00feessu til a\u00f0 l\u00e6ra a\u00f0 hj\u00f3la, heldur til a\u00f0 l\u00e6ra a\u00f0 vera ekki hr\u00e6dd. \u00c9g hugsa\u00f0i sem svo a\u00f0 ef \u00e9g dytti \u00e1 hj\u00f3linu \u00ed Brekkug\u00f6tu, v\u00e6ri l\u00edtil \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0a til a\u00f0 \u00f3ttast byltu \u00e1 jafnsl\u00e9ttu. Og \u00fea\u00f0 var satt.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g man enn\u00fe\u00e1 angistarsvipinn \u00e1 manninum sem s\u00e1 mig detta. Hann st\u00f6\u00f0va\u00f0i umfer\u00f0ina, \u00f6skra\u00f0i \u00e1 mig, sag\u00f0i m\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00e6tti a\u00f0 liggja grafkyrr. \u00dea\u00f0 ger\u00f0i \u00e9g ekki. \u00c9g st\u00f3\u00f0 upp og maka\u00f0i bl\u00f3\u00f0i, t\u00e1rum og hori \u00ed f\u00f6tin m\u00edn. \u00deegar ma\u00f0urinn var b\u00fainn a\u00f0 sannf\u00e6ra sig um a\u00f0 \u00e9g v\u00e6ri ekki brotin, staula\u00f0ist \u00e9g heim. Ma\u00f0urinn teymdi hj\u00f3li\u00f0 fyrir mig. Sem betur f\u00f3r var enginn heima. \u00c9g haf\u00f0i skafi\u00f0 af m\u00e9r b\u00e6\u00f0i hn\u00e9n og annan olnbogann og rifi\u00f0 f\u00f6tin m\u00edn. \u00dea\u00f0 var svosem ekkert \u00f3venjulegt en \u00e9g reikna\u00f0i me\u00f0 a\u00f0 ef m\u00f3\u00f0ir m\u00edn s\u00e6i \u00fatganginn \u00e1 m\u00e9r myndi h\u00fan banna m\u00e9r a\u00f0 hj\u00f3la ni\u00f0ur brattar brekkur. \u00c9g henti f\u00f6tunum, \u00e9g \u00e1tti n\u00f3g af f\u00f6tum og bj\u00f3st ekki vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 neinn t\u00e6ki eftir \u00fev\u00ed \u00fe\u00f3tt einar buxur hyrfu. Svo setti \u00e9g pl\u00e1stra \u00e1 s\u00e1rin og f\u00f3r \u00ed ermalanga peysu. \u00c9g var svol\u00edti\u00f0 marin \u00ed andliti \u00feannig a\u00f0 m\u00f3\u00f0ir m\u00edn t\u00f3k eftir \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00e9g var meidd en \u00fea\u00f0 var ekki fyrr en nokkrum d\u00f6gum s\u00ed\u00f0ar sem h\u00fan \u00e1tta\u00f0i sig \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed hversu miki\u00f0. \u00c9g f\u00f3r nefnilega ekki a\u00f0 haltra a\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0i fyrr en pl\u00e1strarnir sem \u00e9g haf\u00f0i kl\u00edstra\u00f0 yfir bl\u00f3\u00f0risa hn\u00e9n \u00e1 m\u00e9r festust \u00ed greftrinum. \u00c9g \u00feurfti hj\u00e1lp til a\u00f0 n\u00e1 \u00feeim af og hreinsa s\u00e1rin og held a\u00f0 m\u00f3\u00f0ir m\u00edn hafi ekki veina\u00f0 minna en \u00e9g sj\u00e1lf.<\/p>\n
\u00deetta var ekki \u00ed s\u00ed\u00f0asta sinn sem \u00e9g datt \u00e1 hj\u00f3li. En \u00e9g var\u00f0 aldrei framar hr\u00e6dd og \u00e9g \u00feurfti aldrei aftur a\u00f0sto\u00f0 til a\u00f0 hreinsa s\u00e1r. Eftir \u00feetta hellti \u00e9g spritti \u00ed \u00f6ll s\u00e1r strax, hversu l\u00edtil sem \u00feau voru. Til \u00f6ryggis, \u00fev\u00ed m\u00e9r fannst gr\u00f6ftur lykta illa.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Treysti \u00e9g \u00fe\u00e9r ekki segir\u00f0u?\u00a0Kannski er \u00fea\u00f0 r\u00e9tt. Kannski treysti \u00e9g engum neitt s\u00e9rstaklega. Enda ekki \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0a til. Og kemur ekki a\u00f0 s\u00f6k \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g er ekki varnarlaust barn og \u00fearf \u00fe.a.l. engum a\u00f0 treysta.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[217,1],"tags":[224],"class_list":["post-746","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-1-hluti-golanhaedir","category-oflokkad-allt-efni","tag-minningabokin"],"yoast_head":"\n