-Manstu h\u00e9rna um \u00e1ri\u00f0 \u00feegar kasta\u00f0ist \u00ed kekki milli okkar?
\n-\u00deetta eina sinn, j\u00fa \u00e9g man \u00fea\u00f0.
\n-\u00de\u00fa haf\u00f0ir mig fyrir rangri s\u00f6k.
\n-Undarlegt a\u00f0 rifja \u00feetta upp n\u00fana. Er einhver s\u00e9rst\u00f6k \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0a fyrir \u00fev\u00ed?
\n-\u00c9g vil bara gera \u00feetta m\u00e1l upp.
\n-Hmmpfh… Gj\u00f6r\u00f0u svo vel.<\/p>\n
-\u00de\u00fa haf\u00f0ir mig fyrir rangri s\u00f6k. M\u00e9r s\u00e1rna\u00f0i \u00fea\u00f0. \u00c9g er enn\u00fe\u00e1 s\u00e1r.
\n-\u00c9g spur\u00f0i hvort \u00fe\u00fa hef\u00f0ir gert \u00fea\u00f0. Sj\u00e1lfsagt \u00ed \u00e1s\u00f6kunart\u00f3n en \u00fe\u00fa sag\u00f0ir nei og m\u00e1li\u00f0 var dautt. \u00c9g nefndi \u00fea\u00f0 aldrei framar. Aldrei.
\n-M\u00e1li\u00f0 var n\u00e1tt\u00farulega ekkert dautt. \u00de\u00fa l\u00e9st mig nj\u00f3ta vafans, ekkert meira en \u00fea\u00f0. \u00de\u00fa frystir mig ekki en \u00fea\u00f0 var bara af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa haf\u00f0ir ekki sannanir. \u00de\u00fa tr\u00fa\u00f0ir m\u00e9r ekkert.
\n-Nei \u00fea\u00f0 er satt, \u00e9g tr\u00fa\u00f0i \u00fe\u00e9r ekki. Af hverju ertu eiginlega a\u00f0 hugsa um \u00feetta n\u00fana, eftir \u00f6ll \u00feessi \u00e1r?
\n-M\u00e9r finnst \u00e9g eiga r\u00e9tt \u00e1 nokkrum spurningum \u00e1\u00f0ur en \u00e9g svara \u00fev\u00ed.
\n-Pr\u00f3fa\u00f0u.<\/p>\n
-Tr\u00fair\u00f0u m\u00e9r \u00ed dag? Tr\u00fair \u00fe\u00fa \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00e9g hafi ekki komi\u00f0 n\u00e1l\u00e6gt \u00feessu?
\n-\u00c9g hef ekki hugsa\u00f0 um \u00feetta lengi. \u00cd g\u00e6r hef\u00f0i \u00e9g l\u00edklega sagt a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa hef\u00f0ir gert \u00fea\u00f0. \u00de\u00fa v\u00e6rir hinsvegar ekki a\u00f0 rifja \u00feetta upp n\u00fana nema af \u00fev\u00ed \u00fe\u00e9r hefur s\u00e1rna\u00f0 \u00ed alv\u00f6ru, svo j\u00e1, \u00e9g tr\u00fai \u00fe\u00e9r.
\n-Fyrst n\u00fana semsagt.
\n-M\u00e9r \u00feykir \u00fea\u00f0 leitt hjarta\u00f0 mitt. \u00c9g vildi a\u00f0 \u00e9g hef\u00f0i tr\u00faa\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r en \u00e9g gat ekki sannf\u00e6rt sj\u00e1lfa mig. \u00de\u00fa s\u00fdndir heldur engin merki um a\u00f0 vera s\u00e1r \u00fat \u00ed mig. Virtist sakbitinn ef eitthva\u00f0 var.
\n-Ma\u00f0ur getur n\u00fa veri\u00f0 s\u00e1r \u00fe\u00f3tt ma\u00f0ur grenji ekki. Hef\u00f0i \u00fea\u00f0 sannf\u00e6rt \u00feig \u00e1 \u00feeim t\u00edma e\u00f0a \u00feurfti m\u00f6rg \u00e1r til a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa g\u00e6fir \u00fev\u00ed s\u00e9ns a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r skj\u00e1tla\u00f0ist?
\n-\u00c9g bara veit \u00fea\u00f0 ekki. \u00deetta var \u00e1fall. \u00de\u00fa s\u00f3rst \u00feetta af \u00fe\u00e9r en \u00fea\u00f0 virtist enginn annar koma til greina og \u00e9g er d\u00e1l\u00edti\u00f0 vi\u00f0kv\u00e6m fyrir \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 vera h\u00f6f\u00f0 a\u00f0 f\u00edfli. Hef gleypt of margar lygar sem \u00e9g hef\u00f0i \u00e1tt a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 \u00ed gegnum.
\n-Seg\u00f0u m\u00e9r \u00fe\u00e1 anna\u00f0; \u00fe\u00fa h\u00e9lst a\u00f0 \u00e9g hef\u00f0i brug\u00f0ist \u00fe\u00e9r svona illa en samt treystir\u00f0u m\u00e9r aftur. Hva\u00f0a vit er \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed?
\n-\u00deetta var \u00e1\u00f0ur en m\u00e9r var\u00f0 lj\u00f3st a\u00f0 s\u00e1 sem bregst einu sinni mun a\u00f0 \u00f6llum l\u00edkindum gera \u00fea\u00f0 aftur og svo leit \u00e9g \u00e1 \u00feetta sem barnalega hvatv\u00edsi en ekki illgirni. M\u00e9r er ekki alveg fyrirmuna\u00f0 a\u00f0 fyrirgefa og \u00e9g treysti \u00fe\u00e9r n\u00fa ekki alveg samd\u00e6gurs. \u00de\u00fa ert margb\u00fainn a\u00f0 sanna hollustu \u00fe\u00edna s\u00ed\u00f0an og \u00fea\u00f0 er greinilegra merki um i\u00f0run en nokkur j\u00e1tning. Auk \u00feess var enginn annar traustver\u00f0ugri \u00ed l\u00edfi m\u00ednu og ma\u00f0ur \u00fearf a\u00f0 treysta einhverjum. M\u00e1 \u00e9g annars spyrja \u00feig a\u00f0 einu?
\n-Skj\u00f3ttu.<\/p>\n
-\u00de\u00e9r fannst \u00feessi „\u00e1s\u00f6kun“ m\u00edn greinilega mj\u00f6g s\u00e6randi og fyrst \u00fe\u00fa vissir a\u00f0 \u00e9g tr\u00fa\u00f0i \u00fe\u00e9r ekki \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00fe\u00fa v\u00e6rir bl\u00e1saklaus, af hverju br\u00e1stu ekki \u00f3kv\u00e6\u00f0a vi\u00f0? Af hverju snerir\u00f0u ekki baki vi\u00f0 m\u00e9r?
\n-\u00dea\u00f0 var bara svo skiljanlegt a\u00f0 \u00feig gruna\u00f0i mig. \u00dea\u00f0 var enginn \u00ed betri a\u00f0st\u00f6\u00f0u til a\u00f0 gera \u00feetta. \u00de\u00fa fyrirgafst m\u00e9r l\u00edka, a\u00f0 v\u00edsu eitthva\u00f0 sem \u00e9g \u00e1tti ekki s\u00f6k \u00e1, en \u00e9g \u00e1tta\u00f0i mig alveg \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 fyrirgefning af \u00feinni h\u00e1lfu er ekki eitthva\u00f0 sem ma\u00f0ur getur gengi\u00f0 a\u00f0 sem v\u00edsu, \u00feannig a\u00f0 \u00e9g vissi a\u00f0 \u00e9g hlaut a\u00f0 skipta \u00feig talsver\u00f0u m\u00e1li.
\n-\u00d3kei. Fleiri spurningar?
\n-J\u00e1.
\n-L\u00e1ttu va\u00f0a.<\/p>\n
-Ef \u00e9g hef\u00f0i gert \u00fea\u00f0 og vi\u00f0urkennt \u00fea\u00f0, hvernig hef\u00f0ir\u00f0u brug\u00f0ist vi\u00f0?
\n-Sennilega horft \u00e1 \u00feig s\u00e6r\u00f0u augnar\u00e1\u00f0i og l\u00e1ti\u00f0 \u00feig hafa fyrir \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 endurheimta traust mitt.
\n-\u00de\u00fa ger\u00f0ir \u00fea\u00f0 hvort sem var! Hef\u00f0i j\u00e1tning ekki breytt neinu?
\n-Ekki vi\u00f0br\u00f6g\u00f0um m\u00ednum nei, en m\u00e9r hef\u00f0i li\u00f0i\u00f0 betur. \u00c9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 vita hvar \u00e9g hef \u00fe\u00e1 sem standa m\u00e9r n\u00e6st.
\n-Og ef \u00e9g segi \u00fe\u00e9r n\u00fana a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 hafi reyndar veri\u00f0 \u00e9g? Hvernig f\u00e6ri s\u00fa j\u00e1tning \u00ed \u00feig?
\n-\u00deessu \u00e6tla \u00e9g ekki a\u00f0 svara elskan. M\u00e9r finnst \u00e1g\u00e6tt a\u00f0 m\u00ednir n\u00e1nustu s\u00e9 \u00ed p\u00ednulitlum vafa um hvar \u00feeir hafa mig.<\/p>\n
\u00de\u00f6gn.<\/p>\n
-J\u00e6ja. \u00c6tlar\u00f0u a\u00f0 segja m\u00e9r hva\u00f0 vakir fyrir \u00fe\u00e9r? M\u00e9r \u00feykir fyrir \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 geta ekki lesi\u00f0 hugsanir en \u00ed augnablikinu dettur m\u00e9r ekkert \u00ed hug til a\u00f0 b\u00e6ta fyrir \u00fea\u00f0.
\n-\u00c9g er ekki a\u00f0 fiska eftir afsk\u00f6kunarbei\u00f0ni Eva. Ma\u00f0ur bi\u00f0st afs\u00f6kunar \u00e1 sl\u00e6mri framkomu og \u00fe\u00fa komst ekkert illa fram vi\u00f0 mig. \u00dea\u00f0 er ekki sanngjarnt a\u00f0 krefjast \u00feess a\u00f0 f\u00f3lk fyrirver\u00f0i sig fyrir a\u00f0 hugsa r\u00f6kr\u00e9tt. Jafnvel \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00fea\u00f0 r\u00f6kr\u00e9tta s\u00e9 ekki alltaf r\u00e9tt.
\n-Hva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1? Hversvegna ertu a\u00f0 r\u00f3ta \u00feessu upp?<\/p>\n
Hann horf\u00f0i beint \u00ed augun \u00e1 m\u00e9r, eiginlega \u00f3e\u00f0lilega beint. Og svo sag\u00f0i hann;<\/em> -Merkileg a\u00f0sta\u00f0a. Vi\u00f0 ger\u00f0um hvort \u00f6\u00f0ru rangt til, \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 koma illa fram. Er ma\u00f0ur sekur um tilfinningar? Er ma\u00f0ur sekur um rangar hugmyndir? E\u00f0a er s\u00f6kin a\u00f0eins tengd framkomu? -Manstu h\u00e9rna um \u00e1ri\u00f0 \u00feegar kasta\u00f0ist \u00ed kekki milli okkar? -\u00deetta eina sinn, j\u00fa \u00e9g man \u00fea\u00f0. -\u00de\u00fa haf\u00f0ir mig fyrir rangri s\u00f6k. -Undarlegt a\u00f0 rifja \u00feetta upp n\u00fana. Er einhver s\u00e9rst\u00f6k \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0a fyrir \u00fev\u00ed? -\u00c9g vil bara gera \u00feetta … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa
\n-\u00de\u00fa hefur reyndar r\u00e9tt fyrir \u00fe\u00e9r um eitt atri\u00f0i \u00ed \u00feessu m\u00e1li. \u00c9g var sakbitinn l\u00edka. M\u00e1li\u00f0 er a\u00f0 \u00e9g vissi hver ger\u00f0i \u00fea\u00f0. \u00c9g sag\u00f0i ekkert af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 var vinur minn og \u00e9g h\u00e9lt a\u00f0 \u00e9g myndi missa ykkur b\u00e6\u00f0i ef \u00e9g kjafta\u00f0i fr\u00e1. \u00c9g h\u00e9lt a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa myndir s\u00fdna honum van\u00fe\u00f3knun e\u00f0a l\u00e1ta \u00e1 einhvern h\u00e1tt \u00ed lj\u00f3s a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa vissir allt og svo h\u00e9lt \u00e9g a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa myndir \u00e1lykta a\u00f0 fyrst \u00e9g br\u00e1st trausti hans myndi \u00e9g l\u00edka breg\u00f0ast trausti \u00fe\u00ednu. \u00c9g vona\u00f0i a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa k\u00e6mist a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed eftir \u00f6\u00f0rum lei\u00f0um, sem var au\u00f0vita\u00f0 \u00fat \u00ed h\u00f6tt af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 vissi enginn nema \u00e9g hver ger\u00f0i \u00fea\u00f0. \u00c9g segi \u00fe\u00e9r \u00feetta n\u00fana af \u00fev\u00ed \u00fea\u00f0 er fyrst n\u00fana sem m\u00e9r er lj\u00f3st a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa \u00feurftir bara a\u00f0 vita hverjir eru l\u00edklegir til a\u00f0 stinga \u00feig \u00ed baki\u00f0. \u00de\u00fa hef\u00f0ir ekki gert neitt m\u00e1l \u00far \u00feessu. \u00c9g \u00e1tta\u00f0i mig ekki \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed \u00fe\u00e1 og j\u00e1, \u00e9g \u00e6tla\u00f0i a\u00f0 segja \u00fe\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00e9g vanmat \u00feig og m\u00e9r \u00feykir \u00fea\u00f0 leitt.<\/p>\n
\n-\u00c9g veit \u00fea\u00f0 ekki og \u00fea\u00f0 er anna\u00f0 sem vefst fyrir m\u00e9r; \u00e9g mat fyrirgefningu \u00fe\u00edna mikils \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00e9g hef\u00f0i ekki gert \u00feetta. \u00dea\u00f0 getur alltaf komi\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 ma\u00f0ur \u00feurfi \u00e1 fyrirgefningu a\u00f0 halda og \u00fearna f\u00e9kk \u00e9g fyrirgefningu sem var bygg\u00f0 \u00e1 r\u00f6ngum forsendum og \u00feannig s\u00e9\u00f0 \u00f3gild. En \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00e9g er a\u00f0 hugsa um er hvort fyrirgefning fellur \u00far gildi bara af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 forsendurnar voru rangar. \u00dev\u00ed ef svo er ekki \u00fe\u00e1 \u00e1 \u00e9g \u00ed rauninni eina fyrirgefningu inni hj\u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"