\u00c9g vil f\u00e1 greitt fyrirfram, sag\u00f0i \u00e9g.
\n-Er \u00fea\u00f0 eitthva\u00f0 n\u00fdtt hj\u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r?
\n-\u00c9g hef einu sinni \u00feurft a\u00f0 rukka \u00feig og m\u00e9r lei\u00f0ist a\u00f0 rukka.
\n-Treystir\u00f0u m\u00e9r ekki?
\n-Hef \u00e9g einhverja s\u00e9rstaka \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0u til \u00feess?
\n-\u00c9g \u00e6tla n\u00fa ekki a\u00f0 reyna a\u00f0 s\u00e1lgreina \u00feig en \u00e9g held a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa ver\u00f0ir ekki hamingjus\u00f6m fyrr en \u00fe\u00fa l\u00e6rir a\u00f0 treysta f\u00f3lki. Ekki bara \u00ed fj\u00e1rm\u00e1lum meina \u00e9g, heldur l\u00edka tilfinningalega, sag\u00f0i athafnama\u00f0urinn. \u00c9g hl\u00f3.<\/p>\n
-M\u00e9r lei\u00f0ist a\u00f0 rukka en tilfinningalega treystir enginn f\u00f3lki betur en \u00e9g. Sj\u00e1\u00f0u bara bloggi\u00f0 mitt. \u00c9g \u00e1 ekki m\u00f6rg leyndarm\u00e1l. \u00c9g stend hreinlega nakin frammi fyrir alheiminum fjandinn hafi \u00fea\u00f0. Ber tilfinningar m\u00ednar \u00e1 torg, einnig \u00fe\u00e6r miskunnarlausu, l\u00e1gk\u00farulegu og barnalegu. \u00c9g efast satt a\u00f0 segja um a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa \u00feekkir nokkra manneskju sem er jafn \u00f3n\u00e6m fyrir \u00e1liti annarra.
\n-Og \u00feetta gerir\u00f0u \u00ed trausti \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa ver\u00f0ir ekki d\u00e6md fyrir \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00fe\u00fa ert?
\n-\u00c9g geri \u00feetta \u00ed trausti \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00feeir sem telja sig \u00feess umkomna a\u00f0 d\u00e6ma mig, s\u00e9u hvort sem er h\u00e1lfvitar, hverra \u00e1lit skiptir mig n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega engu m\u00e1li.<\/p>\n
Athafnama\u00f0urinn d\u00e6sti.
\n-\u00deetta heitir ekki traust g\u00f3\u00f0a m\u00edn. \u00deetta heitir a\u00f0 skeyta engu um vel\u00fe\u00f3knun annarra og \u00fear me\u00f0 skeytir\u00f0u harla litlu um eigin velfer\u00f0. \u00cd versta falli g\u00e6tir\u00f0u d\u00e6mt sj\u00e1lfa \u00feig til \u00fatsk\u00fafunar \u00feeirra sem skipta \u00feig mestu m\u00e1li.
\n-\u00deetta er mikil speki, sag\u00f0i \u00e9g. \u00c9g \u00e1 semsagt a\u00f0 treysta f\u00f3lki, \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 hafi endilega gefi\u00f0 m\u00e9r s\u00e9rstaka \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0u til \u00feess, en umfram allt \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 s\u00fdna mitt r\u00e9tta andlit? Af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 g\u00e6tu \u00feeir sem \u00e9g \u00e6tti a\u00f0 treysta hafna\u00f0 m\u00e9r. \u00c9g \u00e1 \u00fe\u00e1 v\u00e6ntanlega a\u00f0 treysta f\u00f3lki fyrir einhverri allt annarri manneskju en sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r. Og treysta \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00e9g f\u00e1i vinnuna m\u00edna greidda \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 fara fram \u00e1 \u00fea\u00f0?
\n-\u00c9g veit ekki hvort \u00fe\u00fa misskilur mig e\u00f0a hvort \u00fea\u00f0 er bara \u00fer\u00e6tugirnin \u00ed \u00fe\u00e9r sem talar. \u00c9g er bara a\u00f0 segja a\u00f0 stundum \u00fearf ma\u00f0ur a\u00f0 fara h\u00e6gt \u00ed sakirnar. Af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 f\u00f3lk er vi\u00f0kv\u00e6mt sj\u00e1\u00f0u til. F\u00f3lk er ekki endilega f\u00edfl en f\u00f3lk er\u00a0vi\u00f0kv\u00e6mt. Og f\u00f3lk \u00fearf l\u00edka a\u00f0 vita a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 nj\u00f3ti trausts, ekki bara a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 geti teki\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r eins og \u00fe\u00fa ert e\u00f0a a\u00f0 \u00f6\u00f0rum kosti fari\u00f0 til fjandans.
\n-\u00de\u00fa ert sums\u00e9 a\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0leggja m\u00e9r a\u00f0 h\u00f6f\u00f0a til l\u00e6gstu hvata me\u00f0 tr\u00fana\u00f0arhjali. Leyndarm\u00e1l er nefnilega \u00fea\u00f0 sem ma\u00f0ur segir bara einum \u00ed einu. Svo vi\u00f0komandi f\u00e1i t\u00e6kif\u00e6ri til a\u00f0 f\u00edla sig spes. Veistu \u00fea\u00f0, stundum finnst m\u00e9r mannlegt e\u00f0li verulega \u00f3ge\u00f0fellt.<\/p>\n
-\u00de\u00fa hefur \u00edr\u00f3n\u00edska l\u00edfsafst\u00f6\u00f0u, sag\u00f0i athafnama\u00f0urinn. \u00c9g d\u00e1ist a\u00f0 hugrekki \u00fe\u00ednu en stundum dreg \u00e9g \u00ed efa b\u00e6\u00f0i d\u00f3mgreind \u00fe\u00edna og umhyggju \u00fe\u00edna fyrir sj\u00e1lfri \u00fe\u00e9r.
\n-L\u00edfi\u00f0 er \u00edr\u00f3n\u00edskt. Og \u00feetta me\u00f0 hugrekki\u00f0 er b\u00f6lva\u00f0 kjaft\u00e6\u00f0i. \u00dea\u00f0 \u00fearf kjark til a\u00f0 gera \u00fea\u00f0 sem ma\u00f0ur \u00f3ttast. \u00dea\u00f0 er ekki merki um hugrekki \u00fe\u00f3tt ma\u00f0ur l\u00e1ti s\u00e9r standa \u00e1 sama um \u00fea\u00f0 hva\u00f0a \u00e1lit einhver f\u00edfl kunni a\u00f0 hafa \u00e1 manni. Hva\u00f0 d\u00f3mgreindarskortinn var\u00f0ar \u00fe\u00e1 leggst \u00e9g ekki \u00e1 h\u00f6ggstokkinn \u00ed \u00f3g\u00e1ti. \u00c9g veit hva\u00f0 \u00e9g er a\u00f0 gera. M\u00e1li\u00f0 er bara a\u00f0 m\u00e9r er sama. Fjandans, n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega, hundask\u00edtsama. Hitt er svo anna\u00f0 m\u00e1l a\u00f0 m\u00e9r stendur ekki \u00e1 sama um peningana m\u00edna. \u00dea\u00f0 er nefnilega \u00e1kve\u00f0i\u00f0 frelsi \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed f\u00f3lgi\u00f0 a\u00f0 eiga peninga og einnig \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 hafa ekki \u00e1hyggjur af \u00fev\u00ed hva\u00f0 \u00f6\u00f0rum finnst um mann. \u00c9g er kannski ekki \u00fdkja hamingjus\u00f6m en \u00e9g met frelsi mitt ofar hamingjunni.<\/p>\n
-\u00de\u00fa ert hrokagikkur og me\u00f0 rangt gildismat a\u00f0 auki. Sennilega ertu enn\u00fe\u00e1 \u00feeirrar sko\u00f0unar a\u00f0 hamingjan s\u00e9 bara fyrir h\u00e1lfvita?
\n-\u00dea\u00f0 hef \u00e9g aldrei sagt. \u00c9g hef hins vegar sagt a\u00f0 bj\u00e1num veitist au\u00f0veldara a\u00f0 vera hamingjusamir.
\n-\u00de\u00e9r reynist au\u00f0velt a\u00f0 kalla f\u00f3lk bj\u00e1na ef \u00fea\u00f0 hugsar ekki eins og \u00fe\u00fa.
\n-\u00c9g kalla f\u00f3lk bj\u00e1na ef \u00fea\u00f0 hugsar ekki yfirh\u00f6fu\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 er ekki erfitt a\u00f0 vera hamingjusamur fyrir \u00feann sem neitar a\u00f0 horfast \u00ed augu vi\u00f0 veruleikann og sj\u00e1lfan sig. \u00dea\u00f0 er gaman \u00ed b\u00ed\u00f3.<\/p>\n
-Og \u00feitt l\u00edf \u00e1 ekkert skylt vi\u00f0 b\u00ed\u00f3, sag\u00f0i hann og k\u00edmdi.
\n-J\u00faj\u00fa, vissulega. En minn leikaraskapur sn\u00fdr ekki a\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r heldur umheiminum. Sj\u00e1lfum s\u00e9r til verndar ver\u00f0ur ma\u00f0ur alltaf a\u00f0 hafa einhverjar gr\u00edmur. \u00c9g vil hins vegar f\u00e6kka \u00feeim og hva\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfa mig var\u00f0ar reyni \u00e9g a\u00f0 horfa gr\u00edmulaus \u00ed spegil.
\n-\u00de\u00fa ver\u00f0ur aldrei hamingjus\u00f6m \u00e1 me\u00f0an \u00fe\u00fa s\u00fdnir sj\u00e1lfri \u00fe\u00e9r
\nanna\u00f0 eins miskunnarleysi.
\n-\u00c9g hef oft veri\u00f0 hamingjus\u00f6m \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 lj\u00faga verulega miklu a\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r.
\n-J\u00e6ja, og hven\u00e6r \u00fe\u00e1?
\n-Alltaf \u00feegar \u00e9g hef fengi\u00f0 greitt fyrir vinnuna m\u00edna m\u00f6glunarlaust, \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00feurfa a\u00f0 verja l\u00edfsafst\u00f6\u00f0u m\u00edna fyrir einhverjum hamingjus\u00f6mum h\u00e1lfvita.
\n-\u00de\u00fa ert hr\u00e6\u00f0ileg.
\n-I never promised you a rosegarden.<\/p>\n
-Sj\u00e1\u00f0u til. \u00c9g skil a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r finnist lei\u00f0inlegt a\u00f0 rukka og \u00e9g skal ekki l\u00e1ta \u00feig ganga \u00e1 eftir m\u00e9r. \u00c9g ver\u00f0 a\u00f0 f\u00e1 \u00feessi br\u00e9f fyrir helgi en get ekki borga\u00f0 fyrr en um m\u00e1na\u00f0am\u00f3t.
\n-\u00c6\u00e6, grey \u00fe\u00fa.
\nHann horf\u00f0i \u00feegjandi \u00e1 mig litla stund.
\n-Tekur\u00f0u \u00feetta a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r ef \u00fe\u00fa f\u00e6r\u00f0 helminginn n\u00fana?
\n-\u00d3kei.
\n-\u00de\u00fa treystir m\u00e9r er \u00fea\u00f0 ekki?
\n-\u00dea\u00f0 veit \u00e9g n\u00fa ekki en l\u00edfi\u00f0 er svosem ekki \u00e1h\u00e6ttulaust, sag\u00f0i \u00e9g og glotti kvikindislega.<\/p>\n
-\u00de\u00fa ert samt hr\u00e6\u00f0ileg.
\n-Og hva\u00f0 viltu a\u00f0 \u00e9g geri vi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e6r uppl\u00fdsingar? \u00c6tlastu til \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00e9g m\u00f3tm\u00e6li \u00fev\u00ed e\u00f0a \u00e1 \u00e9g a\u00f0 vera \u00e6gilega sorr\u00fd yfir \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r finnist \u00e9g hr\u00e6\u00f0ileg?
\n-\u00c6i l\u00e1ttu ekki svona. \u00de\u00fa ert a\u00f0 \u00f6\u00f0ru leyti alveg \u00e1g\u00e6t.
\n-Veit ek \u00feat.
\n-En \u00e9g. Er \u00e9g alveg hr\u00e6\u00f0ilegur?
\n-Nei, nei. \u00de\u00fa ert bara \u00f3sk\u00f6p venjulegur h\u00e1lfviti.
\n-\u00de\u00fa ert hr\u00e6\u00f0ileg.
\n-S\u00f3?
\n-\u00de\u00fa kemur \u00feessu \u00fe\u00e1 til m\u00edn?
\n-J\u00e1, ef \u00fe\u00fa ver\u00f0ur b\u00fainn a\u00f0 leggja inn hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r.
\n-\u00de\u00fa veist a\u00f0 m\u00e9r finnst \u00fe\u00fa g\u00f3\u00f0ur penni \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00fe\u00fa s\u00e9rt a\u00f0 \u00f6\u00f0ru leyti hr\u00e6\u00f0ileg.
\n-\u00c9g veit.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00c9g vil f\u00e1 greitt fyrirfram, sag\u00f0i \u00e9g. -Er \u00fea\u00f0 eitthva\u00f0 n\u00fdtt hj\u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r? -\u00c9g hef einu sinni \u00feurft a\u00f0 rukka \u00feig og m\u00e9r lei\u00f0ist a\u00f0 rukka. -Treystir\u00f0u m\u00e9r ekki? -Hef \u00e9g einhverja s\u00e9rstaka \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0u til \u00feess? -\u00c9g \u00e6tla n\u00fa ekki … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa