Um 16 \u00e1ra aldur var m\u00e9r or\u00f0i\u00f0 lj\u00f3st a\u00f0 f\u00f3lk gerir n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00fev\u00ed bara s\u00fdnist. Sumt af \u00fev\u00ed er sj\u00fakt, rangt og heimskulegt, hreint ekki Gvu\u00f0i \u00fe\u00f3knanlegt, hva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 m\u00e9r. \u00c9g hef semsagt vita\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 nokku\u00f0 lengi a\u00f0 \u00e9g get ekki stj\u00f3rna\u00f0 heiminum og ekki einu sinni \u00feeim sem eru m\u00e9r n\u00e1nastir. \u00c9g hef aldrei veri\u00f0 fullkomlega s\u00e1tt vi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 sta\u00f0reynd.<\/p>\n
Einu sinni h\u00e9lt \u00e9g a\u00f0 besta trixi\u00f0 til a\u00f0 for\u00f0ast s\u00e1rsauka v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 treysta a\u00f0eins f\u00e1um og gera til \u00feeirra kr\u00f6fu um a.m.k. l\u00e1gmarks hei\u00f0arleika. \u00dea\u00f0 bara virkar ekki. Hei\u00f0arleiki \u00fatheimtir nefnilega hugrekki og \u00fea\u00f0 er n\u00e6sta f\u00e1g\u00e6tur eiginleiki.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g komst a\u00f0 \u00feeirri ni\u00f0urst\u00f6\u00f0u \u00fea\u00f0 eina sem ma\u00f0ur g\u00e6ti gert, sj\u00e1lfum s\u00e9r til verndar, v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 sl\u00edta \u00f6ll tengsl vi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 f\u00e1vita sem eru ge\u00f0heilsu manns hva\u00f0 h\u00e6ttulegastir. Hugsa sem svo a\u00f0 \u00fear sem heimurinn er fullur af d\u00e1samlegu f\u00f3lki, s\u00e9 \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0ulaust a\u00f0 eiga samskipti vi\u00f0 \u00feessar 5 e\u00f0a 6 hr\u00e6\u00f0ur sem gera manni l\u00edfi\u00f0 erfi\u00f0ara. \u00c9g m\u00e6li me\u00f0 \u00feessari a\u00f0fer\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed h\u00fan virkar pr\u00fd\u00f0ilega \u00e1 me\u00f0an ma\u00f0ur getur sneitt hj\u00e1 \u00f6llu sem minnir \u00e1 tilvist f\u00e1vitans. H\u00fan dugar samt ekki ein og s\u00e9r, \u00fev\u00ed fyrr e\u00f0a s\u00ed\u00f0ar kemur a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 ma\u00f0ur rekst \u00e1 hann, fr\u00e9ttir af honum e\u00f0a ver\u00f0ur fyrir \u00f6\u00f0ru \u00e1reiti sem kallar fram gamla rei\u00f0i og s\u00e1rindi.<\/p>\n
Rei\u00f0in fer l\u00edklega verst me\u00f0 mann sj\u00e1lfan svona til lengdar. \u00c9g \u00e1 ekkert erfitt me\u00f0 a\u00f0 stinga rei\u00f0inni ni\u00f0ur \u00ed sk\u00faffu. \u00c9g missi ekki stj\u00f3rn \u00e1 skapi m\u00ednu. \u00c9g hef bara geymt rei\u00f0ina alveg roslega lengi. Hinga\u00f0 til hef \u00e9g losna\u00f0 vi\u00f0 rei\u00f0ina \u00feegar \u00e9g s\u00e9 merki einl\u00e6grar i\u00f0runar, e\u00f0a \u00feegar f\u00e1vitinn hefur s\u00e9\u00f0 um a\u00f0 refsa s\u00e9r sj\u00e1lfur (sem undarlegt nokk gerist ALLTAF). \u00dea\u00f0 hefur ekki hent mig fyrr a\u00f0 vita r\u00e9ttl\u00e6tinu fulln\u00e6gt og ver\u00f0a bara enn\u00fe\u00e1 rei\u00f0ari.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g hef aldrei \u00f3ska\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r neins verra en \u00feess a\u00f0 f\u00e1 b\u00f3lu \u00e1 nefi\u00f0 og ekki veit \u00e9g hverslags endemis blanda af sj\u00e1lfsfyrirlitningu og heimsku hefur komi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r til a\u00f0 kj\u00f3sa yfir \u00feig a\u00f0ra eins eymd. \u00dea\u00f0 gle\u00f0ur mig ekki rassgat a\u00f0 vita \u00feig \u00fej\u00e1st og \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00e9g s\u00e9 jafn fr\u00e1bitin \u00fev\u00ed og \u00e1\u00f0ur a\u00f0 tro\u00f0a fyrirgefningu upp \u00e1 \u00fe\u00e1 sem ekki hafa \u00f3ska\u00f0 eftir henni formlega, (enda er \u00fea\u00f0 fullkomlega \u00f3r\u00f6kr\u00e9tt) s\u00e9 \u00e9g ekki betur en a\u00f0 \u00e9g ver\u00f0i sj\u00e1lfrar m\u00edn vegna a\u00f0 horfast \u00ed augu vi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 sta\u00f0reynd a\u00f0 \u00fer\u00e1tt fyrir allt elska \u00e9g \u00feig \u00e1kaflega miki\u00f0.<\/p>\n
Misskildu mig ekki. \u00c9g hef ekki fyrirgefi\u00f0 eitt e\u00f0a neitt \u00fe\u00f3tt sj\u00e1lfsagt myndu einhverjir grunnhyggnir kj\u00e1nar flokka \u00feetta sem fyrirgefningu. M\u00e9r \u00feykir bara of v\u00e6nt um sj\u00e1lfa mig til a\u00f0 nenna a\u00f0 leggja \u00fea\u00f0 \u00e1 mig a\u00f0 vera rei\u00f0 lengur og of v\u00e6nt um \u00feig til a\u00f0 geta l\u00e1ti\u00f0 m\u00e9r standa \u00e1 sama um \u00feig. \u00dea\u00f0 er bara uppgj\u00f6f, enginn klassi yfir \u00fev\u00ed. M\u00e9r \u00feykir \u00fea\u00f0 leitt.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Um 16 \u00e1ra aldur var m\u00e9r or\u00f0i\u00f0 lj\u00f3st a\u00f0 f\u00f3lk gerir n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00fev\u00ed bara s\u00fdnist. Sumt af \u00fev\u00ed er sj\u00fakt, rangt og heimskulegt, hreint ekki Gvu\u00f0i \u00fe\u00f3knanlegt, hva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 m\u00e9r. \u00c9g hef semsagt vita\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 nokku\u00f0 lengi a\u00f0 … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa