Allt hefur sinn t\u00edma minn k\u00e6ri. \u00de\u00fa r\u00edfur hvorki n\u00e9 r\u00fdfur fre\u00f0\u00fdsu \u00far ro\u00f0inu og \u00fe\u00ed\u00f0ir hvorki n\u00e9 \u00fe\u00fd\u00f0ir \u00fe\u00e9r vi\u00f0 hjarta, \u00e1n \u00feessa\u00f0 eiga \u00e1 h\u00e6ttu kalskemmdir. En ef \u00fe\u00fa bara tekur hana \u00far frystinum, \u00fe\u00e1 \u00fei\u00f0nar h\u00fan sj\u00e1lf. Og \u00fea\u00f0 eina sem \u00fe\u00fa \u00fearft a\u00f0 gera er a\u00f0 b\u00ed\u00f0a. \u00de\u00e9r \u00fearf samt ekki a\u00f0 lei\u00f0ast \u00fev\u00ed me\u00f0an \u00fe\u00fa b\u00ed\u00f0ur skal \u00e9g segja \u00fe\u00e9r s\u00f6gur, eina \u00e1 hverri n\u00f3ttu, \u00feessa n\u00f3tt og n\u00e6stu 1000 ef \u00fe\u00fa k\u00e6rir \u00feig um. H\u00e9r er s\u00fa fyrsta:<\/p>\n
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Einu sinni var ma\u00f0ur sem elska\u00f0i mig. \u00c9g held m.a.s. \u00ed alv\u00f6ru. Hann skildi mig betur en flestir og \u00e1n skilnings er engin \u00e1st, ekkert nema kannski k\u00e6rleikurinn sem fyrirgefur \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 skilja. \u00c9g veit ekki alveg hversu miki\u00f0 \u00e1lit \u00e9g hef \u00e1 \u00feessh\u00e1ttar k\u00e6rleika.<\/p>\n
M\u00e9r \u00fe\u00f3tti afskaplega v\u00e6nt um \u00feann mann, kannski mest vegna \u00feess a\u00f0 enginn haf\u00f0i elska\u00f0 mig \u00e1\u00f0ur. \u00c9g elska\u00f0i hann samt ekki alveg, allavega ekki eins miki\u00f0 og hann \u00feurfti og sennilega var \u00e9g ekki s\u00e9rlega g\u00f3\u00f0 vi\u00f0 hann. \u00c9g hef\u00f0i \u00e1tt a\u00f0 elska hann en \u00e9g var heimsk. Svo hann fann s\u00e9r a\u00f0ra konu sem sag\u00f0i honum \u00fea\u00f0 sem hann vildi heyra og klappa\u00f0i saman l\u00f3funum af hrifingu \u00ed hvert sinn sem hann f\u00f3r \u00fat me\u00f0 rusli\u00f0 af sj\u00e1lfsd\u00e1\u00f0um. Hann eigna\u00f0ist me\u00f0 henni b\u00f6rn og \u00fea\u00f0 voru g\u00f3\u00f0 b\u00f6rn og h\u00fan var g\u00f3\u00f0 kona. Og sj\u00e1lfsagt hefur hann l\u00edka veri\u00f0 afbrag\u00f0s fa\u00f0ir og eiginma\u00f0ur og eflaust elskar hann konuna s\u00edna meira en mig.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g var\u00f0 ekki fyrir vonbrig\u00f0um \u00feegar hann n\u00e1\u00f0i s\u00e9r \u00ed a\u00f0ra konu en \u00e9g var d\u00e1l\u00edti\u00f0 hissa \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed hva\u00f0 honum reyndist l\u00e9tt a\u00f0 elska hverja konuna \u00e1 f\u00e6tur annarri, kannski bara vegna \u00feess a\u00f0 sj\u00e1lf elska \u00e9g engan \u00e1n fyrirhafnar og eiginlega \u00feykir m\u00e9r ekkert s\u00e9rstaklega v\u00e6nt um f\u00f3lk. Ekki nema \u00ed skilningi k\u00e6rleikans, sem fyrirgefur \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 k\u00e6ra sig\u00a0endilega um n\u00e1nari samskipti.<\/p>\n
Seinna sag\u00f0i \u00feessi ma\u00f0ur a\u00f0 hann sakna\u00f0i m\u00edn p\u00ednul\u00edti\u00f0, stundum. M\u00e9r \u00fe\u00f3tti v\u00e6nt um \u00fea\u00f0 og ef a\u00f0st\u00e6\u00f0ur hef\u00f0u veri\u00f0 \u00f6\u00f0ruv\u00edsi hef\u00f0i \u00e9g sagt a\u00f0 \u00e9g sakna\u00f0i hans l\u00edka. En \u00fea\u00f0 ger\u00f0i \u00e9g ekki \u00fev\u00ed \u00fea\u00f0 hef\u00f0i kannski hlj\u00f3ma\u00f0 eins og \u00e9g vildi ver\u00f0a hj\u00e1konan hans og \u00fea\u00f0 vildi \u00e9g ekki. Ekki vegna \u00feess a\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00fe\u00e6tti \u00fea\u00f0 rangt e\u00f0a lj\u00f3tt, heldur af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 m\u00e9r fannst \u00fea\u00f0 ekki \u00e6skilegt hlutskipti a\u00f0 vera hj\u00e1kona. Reyndar finnst m\u00e9r anna\u00f0 s\u00e6ti\u00f0 ekki verulega spennandi kostur \u00ed neinum a\u00f0st\u00e6\u00f0um, kannski af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 m\u00e9r vir\u00f0ist yfirleitt standa \u00fea\u00f0 til bo\u00f0a. \u00c9g r\u00e6ddi \u00fea\u00f0 ekkert hvort \u00e9g sakna\u00f0i hans e\u00f0a ekki, spur\u00f0i bara hvort hann sakna\u00f0i m\u00edn n\u00f3gu miki\u00f0 til a\u00f0 setja mig \u00ed fyrsta s\u00e6ti\u00f0.<\/p>\n
\u00de\u00e1 f\u00f3r ma\u00f0urinn sem elska\u00f0i mig heim og gat konu sinni eitt barn til vi\u00f0b\u00f3tar.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Allt hefur sinn t\u00edma minn k\u00e6ri. \u00de\u00fa r\u00edfur hvorki n\u00e9 r\u00fdfur fre\u00f0\u00fdsu \u00far ro\u00f0inu og \u00fe\u00ed\u00f0ir hvorki n\u00e9 \u00fe\u00fd\u00f0ir \u00fe\u00e9r vi\u00f0 hjarta, \u00e1n \u00feessa\u00f0 eiga \u00e1 h\u00e6ttu kalskemmdir. En ef \u00fe\u00fa bara tekur hana \u00far frystinum, \u00fe\u00e1 \u00fei\u00f0nar h\u00fan sj\u00e1lf. … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa