\u00dea\u00f0 er ekki \u00f3algengt a\u00f0 fjarskyldir \u00e6ttingjar og gamlir kunningjar reki nefi\u00f0 inn \u00ed Nornab\u00fa\u00f0ina, r\u00e9tt svona til a\u00f0 kasta \u00e1 mig kve\u00f0ju e\u00f0a forvitnast. Eitthva\u00f0 \u00ed fari hans sannf\u00e6r\u00f0i mig \u00fe\u00f3 um a\u00f0 hann \u00e6tti br\u00fdnna erindi. Hann \u00fe\u00e1\u00f0i kaffi, spur\u00f0i \u00fat \u00ed v\u00f6runar af uppger\u00f0ar\u00e1huga og tromma\u00f0i fingrunum \u00e1 bor\u00f0i\u00f0. Sag\u00f0ist svo hafa rekist \u00e1 vefs\u00ed\u00f0una af tilviljun.<\/p>\n
–\u00c9g f\u00f3r a\u00f0 sko\u00f0a \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00fe\u00fa varst a\u00f0 skrifa um \u00fea\u00f0 leyti sem vi\u00f0 vorum a\u00f0 hittast. \u00dea\u00f0 er kannski ekkert skr\u00fdti\u00f0 \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00fe\u00fa hafir h\u00e6tt a\u00f0 svara s\u00edmanum. M\u00e1li\u00f0 er bara… \u00de\u00fa veist… \u00c9g var n\u00e1tt\u00farulega \u00ed r\u00fast og rusli og frekar upptekinn af sj\u00e1lfum m\u00e9r \u00e1 \u00feessum t\u00edma. \u00c9g hef\u00f0i \u00e1tt a\u00f0 s\u00fdna \u00fe\u00e9r meiri \u00e1huga. \u00c9g hef\u00f0i allavega \u00e1tt a\u00f0 keyra \u00feig heim …<\/em> –Dj\u00eds ma\u00f0ur! Dj\u00f6full ertu bitur! \u00dea\u00f0 hvarflar n\u00e1tt\u00farulega ekkert a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00e9g hef\u00f0i kannski bara alveg haft \u00e1huga \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed sem \u00fe\u00fa haf\u00f0ir a\u00f0 segja?<\/em> \u00c9g hef\u00f0i vilja\u00f0 segja margt meira. Og \u00e9g hef\u00f0i or\u00f0a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 vel. En \u00e9g fann a\u00f0 \u00e9g var \u00e1 hra\u00f0lei\u00f0 me\u00f0 a\u00f0 tapa k\u00falinu og af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 er ekki vir\u00f0ulegt a\u00f0 vera bitur \u00e1kva\u00f0 \u00e9g a\u00f0 h\u00e6tta \u00e1\u00f0ur en bl\u00ed\u00f0an hyrfi \u00far r\u00f6dd minni og brosi\u00f0 \u00far augum.<\/p>\n –\u00de\u00e9r finnst \u00e9g vera f\u00e1viti er \u00fea\u00f0 ekki?<\/em> -\u00de\u00fa kemst ekki \u00fat nema \u00e9g opni fyrir \u00fe\u00e9r me\u00f0 lykli, sag\u00f0i \u00e9g k\u00e6ruleysislega. Kuldinn \u00ed r\u00f6dd hans var kominn undir frostmark. Hann st\u00f3\u00f0 \u00ed opnum dyrum Nornab\u00fa\u00f0arinnar. Lag\u00f0i h\u00f6ndina sn\u00f6ggvast \u00e1 \u00f6xlina \u00e1 m\u00e9r og leit framan \u00ed mig. <\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u00dea\u00f0 er ekki \u00f3algengt a\u00f0 fjarskyldir \u00e6ttingjar og gamlir kunningjar reki nefi\u00f0 inn \u00ed Nornab\u00fa\u00f0ina, r\u00e9tt svona til a\u00f0 kasta \u00e1 mig kve\u00f0ju e\u00f0a forvitnast. Eitthva\u00f0 \u00ed fari hans sannf\u00e6r\u00f0i mig \u00fe\u00f3 um a\u00f0 hann \u00e6tti br\u00fdnna erindi. Hann \u00fe\u00e1\u00f0i … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa
\n-J\u00e1 finnst \u00fe\u00e9r \u00fea\u00f0 virkilega? sag\u00f0i \u00e9g \u00ed v\u00e9fr\u00e9ttart\u00f3n og horf\u00f0i rannsakandi \u00e1 hann.
\n–\u00de\u00fa hef\u00f0ir \u00e1tt a\u00f0 segja m\u00e9r hva\u00f0 gekk \u00e1 \u00ed l\u00edfi \u00fe\u00ednu.<\/em>
\n-Og hverju hef\u00f0i \u00fea\u00f0 svosem breytt?
\n–\u00c9g hef\u00f0i \u00fe\u00e1 kannski geta\u00f0 veri\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r einhver stu\u00f0ningur. Allavega komi\u00f0 betur fram vi\u00f0 \u00feig, \u00fe\u00fa skilur hva\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00e1 vi\u00f0. \u00c9g les ekki hugsanir.<\/em>
\n-J\u00e1 vinur, \u00e9g skil hva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa \u00e1tt vi\u00f0, sag\u00f0i \u00e9g af allri \u00feeirri sykurs\u00e6tu sem m\u00edn tryntna r\u00f6dd hefur yfir a\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0a og brosti elskulega. \u00de\u00fa \u00e1tt vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa \u00feurfir alveg s\u00e9rstaka \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0u til a\u00f0 s\u00fdna m\u00e9r l\u00e1gmarks vir\u00f0ingu. En \u00fe\u00fa \u00fearft ekki a\u00f0 hafa neitt samviskubit, \u00e9g t\u00f3k \u00fev\u00ed aldrei pers\u00f3nulega. \u00c9g s\u00e9 \u00ed gegnum \u00fe\u00edna l\u00edka \u00e1 l\u00f6ngu f\u00e6ri og \u00feessvegna haf\u00f0i \u00e9g vit \u00e1 a\u00f0 halda \u00f6llu tilfinningakjaft\u00e6\u00f0i utan vi\u00f0 \u00feetta.
\n–M\u00edna l\u00edka? Hva\u00f0 \u00e1ttu vi\u00f0? spur\u00f0i hann me\u00f0 nokkurri \u00feykkju.<\/em>
\n-\u00c9g \u00e1 vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 f\u00f3lk sem s\u00e9r ekki \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0u til a\u00f0 vera n\u00e6s vi\u00f0 f\u00e9laga s\u00edna nema \u00feegar \u00feeir eiga eitthva\u00f0 b\u00e1gt, er l\u00edklegt til a\u00f0 hlaupast undan merkjum um lei\u00f0 og reynir eitthva\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00fea\u00f0. \u00deessvegna \u00e1 ma\u00f0ur aldrei a\u00f0 l\u00edta \u00e1 hj\u00e1sv\u00e6fu sem vin.
\n(\u00c9g lag\u00f0i mig fram um a\u00f0 vera hl\u00fdleg og er ekki fr\u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 m\u00e9r hafi tekist vel upp.)<\/p>\n
\n-Nei g\u00e6skur. Ef \u00fe\u00fa hef\u00f0ir haft einhvern pers\u00f3nulegan \u00e1huga \u00e1 m\u00e9r hef\u00f0ir\u00f0u \u00ed \u00fea\u00f0 minnsta spurt um eitthva\u00f0 anna\u00f0 en bara hva\u00f0 \u00e9g f\u00edla\u00f0i \u00ed b\u00e6linu. \u00de\u00fa gef\u00f0ir jafnvel flett m\u00e9r upp \u00e1 google en ekki rekist \u00e1 s\u00ed\u00f0una af tilviljun m\u00f6rgum m\u00e1nu\u00f0um s\u00ed\u00f0ar. En \u00fe\u00fa \u00fearft ekki a\u00f0 hafa neinar \u00e1hyggjur af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa hafir fari\u00f0 illa me\u00f0 mig. \u00c1hugaleysi\u00f0 var gagnkv\u00e6mt. Sk\u00edrl\u00edfi hentar m\u00e9r ekki og \u00fe\u00fa ert s\u00e6tur, \u00fea\u00f0 er g\u00f3\u00f0 lykt af \u00fe\u00e9r og \u00fe\u00fa ert hvorki f\u00e1lmari n\u00e9 ruddi \u00ed r\u00faminu. M\u00e9r fannst bara helv\u00edti gott a\u00f0 vera me\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r. M\u00e9r var hinsvegar sk\u00edtsama um \u00ed\u00fer\u00f3ttaafrek \u00fe\u00edn og vinnusta\u00f0ardrami\u00f0 og \u00e9g hef alltaf sam\u00fa\u00f0 me\u00f0 \u00feeim sem slasast, veikjast e\u00f0a ver\u00f0a fyrir sorg, svo \u00fea\u00f0 var ekkert pers\u00f3nulegt \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00e9g v\u00e6ri g\u00f3\u00f0 vi\u00f0 \u00feig. Munurinn \u00e1 m\u00e9r og \u00fe\u00e9r er bara s\u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00e9g kann mig. J\u00e1, \u00e6tli \u00e9g hef\u00f0i ekki allavega keyrt \u00feig heim, svona fyrir kurteisisakir. Og ef \u00fe\u00fa ert a\u00f0 reyna a\u00f0 gera l\u00edti\u00f0 \u00far m\u00e9r fyrir \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 horfast \u00ed augu vi\u00f0 sta\u00f0reyndir og kalla hlutina s\u00ednum r\u00e9ttu n\u00f6fnum, \u00fe\u00e1 gj\u00f6r\u00f0u svo vel. \u00c9g veit a\u00f0 flestar konur hr\u00f6kkva undan or\u00f0inu „bitur“ eins og \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri svipuh\u00f6gg en \u00fea\u00f0 virkar ekki \u00e1 mig.<\/p>\n
\n-Ertu a\u00f0 bi\u00f0ja mig a\u00f0 sn\u00faa hn\u00edfnum \u00ed s\u00e1rinu?
\n\u00de\u00e1 st\u00f3\u00f0 hann upp, \u00feakka\u00f0i \u00feurrlega fyrir kaffi\u00f0 og stika\u00f0i til dyra.<\/p>\n
\n–\u00de\u00fa vildir \u00fe\u00e1 kannski vera svo v\u00e6n?<\/em> sag\u00f0i hann kuldalega.
\n-Jamm. \u00deegar \u00fe\u00fa ert b\u00fainn a\u00f0 svara einni spurningu.
\nHann beit saman t\u00f6nnum, st\u00f3\u00f0 st\u00edfur me\u00f0 a\u00f0ra h\u00f6nd \u00e1 handfanginu og horf\u00f0i \u00fat \u00ed lofti\u00f0.
\n-\u00de\u00fa svafst hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r tvisvar sinnum. Tvisvar og \u00e9g gisti ekki. \u00de\u00fa f\u00f3rst heldur ekki fram \u00e1 \u00fea\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 skipti \u00feig engu m\u00e1li hver \u00e9g var e\u00f0a hva\u00f0 \u00e9g hugsa\u00f0i. \u00de\u00fa spur\u00f0ir ekki um \u00e6tt m\u00edna og uppeldi, \u00e1huga e\u00f0a atvinnu, afst\u00f6\u00f0u til nokkurs sem skipti m\u00e1li, hva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 hvernig m\u00e9r lei\u00f0. Hvers vegna \u00ed fjandanum \u00e6ttir\u00f0u \u00fe\u00e1 a\u00f0 hafa \u00e1huga \u00e1 M\u00cdNU \u00e1liti \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed hvort e\u00f0a hversu mikill f\u00e1viti \u00fe\u00fa s\u00e9rt? Af hverju spyr\u00f0u ekki einhvern sem \u00feekkir \u00feig? Einhvern sem skiptir \u00feig m\u00e1li?<\/p>\n
\n–\u00c9g bi\u00f0st afs\u00f6kunar \u00e1 \u00feessari innr\u00e1s og \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 vera eins og \u00e9g er. Viltu n\u00fa hleypa m\u00e9r h\u00e9\u00f0an \u00fat, \u00fe\u00fa hl\u00fdtur a\u00f0 vera b\u00fain a\u00f0 f\u00e1 n\u00f3ga \u00fatr\u00e1s.<\/em>
\n-Takk fyrir komuna. \u00dea\u00f0 er reyndar eitt \u00ed vi\u00f0b\u00f3t sem \u00e9g \u00e6tla a\u00f0 segja \u00fe\u00e9r; hvort sem \u00fe\u00e9r finnst \u00fe\u00fa vera f\u00e1viti e\u00f0a ekki, \u00fe\u00e1 hefur\u00f0u r\u00e9tt fyrir \u00fe\u00e9r. Og ef ma\u00f0ur vill ekki vera f\u00e1viti \u00fe\u00e1 er einfaldast a\u00f0 h\u00e6tta a\u00f0 heg\u00f0a s\u00e9r eins og f\u00e1viti.<\/p>\n
\n–\u00c9g \u00e6tla a\u00f0 svara \u00feessari spurningu Eva, af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa skrifar svo miki\u00f0 um f\u00e1vita og samskipti og einsemd mannsins \u00ed heiminum a\u00f0 \u00e9g held a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa hlj\u00f3tir a\u00f0 skilja hva\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00e1 vi\u00f0, <\/em>sag\u00f0i hann og kuldabolinn var vikinn \u00far r\u00f6ddinni. \u00c1st\u00e6\u00f0an fyrir \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00e9g spyr \u00feig hvort \u00e9g s\u00e9 f\u00e1viti, er einfaldlega s\u00fa a\u00f0 \u00e9g hef engan annan til a\u00f0 spyrja. \u00de\u00fa \u00fearft ekki a\u00f0 taka \u00fev\u00ed neitt pers\u00f3nulega.<\/em><\/p>\n