F\u00f3lk \u00ed Hollywoodmyndum getur gr\u00e1ti\u00f0 fallega. L\u00edka stj\u00f3rnm\u00e1lamenn sem \u00feurfa a\u00f0 bi\u00f0jast afs\u00f6kunar. T\u00e1r blikandi \u00e1 hvarmi. Fallega, n\u00e1nast tignarlega. F\u00ednlegar viprur kringum munnvikin vekja \u00feessa vi\u00f0kv\u00e6mnislegu sam\u00fa\u00f0 me\u00f0 \u00f6llu sem gr\u00e6tur, kannski hl\u00fdju, huggunarhv\u00f6t e\u00f0a verndar\u00fer\u00e1 en ekki tilfinningu um vanm\u00e1tt og r\u00e1\u00f0leysi. Gr\u00e1tandinn fellur a\u00f0 \u00f6xl huggarans \u00ed tilfinningalegri uppgj\u00f6f og sefast.<\/p>\n
Raunveruleikinn er \u00f6\u00f0ruv\u00edsi. Raunveruleikinn er kvein sem \u00e1 r\u00e6tur s\u00ednar undir \u00feindinni, ofsi, hor og grettur. \u00c9g hef oft s\u00e9\u00f0 fullor\u00f0i\u00f0 f\u00f3lk gr\u00e1ta en man ekki eftir neinum sem hefur \u00feegi\u00f0 fa\u00f0mlag fyrr en mestu ge\u00f0shr\u00e6ringunni linnir. Raunverulegt f\u00f3lk sn\u00fdr s\u00e9r undan, hniprar sig saman, setur kryppu \u00e1 baki\u00f0 og ber fyrir sig handleggi, l\u00edkt og til a\u00f0 mynda skel utan um gr\u00e1tkasti\u00f0. Alv\u00f6ruf\u00f3lk reynir a\u00f0 fela \u00e1 s\u00e9r andliti\u00f0 \u00feegar \u00fea\u00f0 gr\u00e6tur. Raunverulegt f\u00f3lk gr\u00e6tur andlitsfar\u00f0ann framan \u00far s\u00e9r og ver\u00f0ur rautt og \u00fer\u00fati\u00f0. Svipurinn l\u00fdsir ekki feginleik vegna \u00fatr\u00e1sar b\u00e6ldra tilfinninga heldur sk\u00f6mmustu vegna \u00f3hemjugangsins.<\/p>\n
Raunverulegt f\u00f3lk ver\u00f0ur heldur ekki a\u00f0 hetjum \u00feegar \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9r a\u00f0ra gr\u00e1ta. \u00dea\u00f0 er au\u00f0velt a\u00f0 hugga b\u00f6rn \u00feegar \u00feau detta e\u00f0a ver\u00f0a hr\u00e6dd en fullor\u00f0i\u00f0 f\u00f3lk gr\u00e6tur af \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0um sem ma\u00f0ur getur ekki kippt \u00ed li\u00f0inn me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed einu a\u00f0 vera til sta\u00f0ar. Alv\u00f6ruf\u00f3lk getur or\u00f0i\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0villt og hr\u00e6tt e\u00f0a \u00ed sk\u00e1rsta falli vandr\u00e6\u00f0alegt \u00feegar a\u00f0rir gr\u00e1ta og suma langar mest a\u00f0 hlaupa burt. Og jafnvel \u00fe\u00f3tt huggarinn s\u00e9 sallar\u00f3legur er hann ekki endilega me\u00f0 brei\u00f0a \u00f6xl og hann segir ekki n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega r\u00e9ttu or\u00f0in \u00e1 n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega r\u00e9ttu augnabliki. Raunverulegur huggari reynir \u00ed r\u00e1\u00f0aleysi a\u00f0 giska \u00e1 hva\u00f0 fer fram \u00ed h\u00f6f\u00f0i \u00feess sem gr\u00e6tur. Hann tautar eitthva\u00f0 um a\u00f0 allt lagist, str\u00fdkur kannski her\u00f0ar e\u00f0a klappar \u00e1 bak og finnur s\u00e1rlega til vanm\u00e1ttar s\u00edns, fyllist h\u00f6fnunarkennd \u00feegar vinarbrag\u00f0 hans vekur engin vi\u00f0br\u00f6g\u00f0 e\u00f0a jafnvel neikv\u00e6\u00f0 vi\u00f0br\u00f6g\u00f0.<\/p>\n
Sannleikurinn er s\u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00ed raunveruleikanum er gr\u00e1tur ekki merki um heilbrig\u00f0i heldur veikleika og \u00ed raunveruleikanum er ekkert r\u00f3mant\u00edskt vi\u00f0 tilraunir \u00feess sem hefur or\u00f0i\u00f0 fyrir tilfinningalegum \u00e1f\u00f6llum til a\u00f0 heg\u00f0a s\u00e9r eins og heilbrig\u00f0 manneskja og mistakast \u00fea\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 er enginn bjargv\u00e6ttur sem gerir allt au\u00f0velt, enginn klettur \u00ed hafi. Kraftaverki\u00f0 er \u00ed besta falli einhver sem \u00e1ttar sig \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 mannskepnan er \u00ed e\u00f0li s\u00ednu asnaleg og gerir ekki kr\u00f6fu um anna\u00f0. Og reyndar dugar sl\u00edkt kraftaverk alveg \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri l\u00edklega ekki tilkomumiki\u00f0 \u00e1 hv\u00edta tjaldinu. \u00c1 endanum h\u00e6ttir ma\u00f0ur a\u00f0 gr\u00e1ta, einkum ef ma\u00f0ur hefur ekki g\u00f3\u00f0a \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0u til \u00feess, jafnvel \u00fe\u00f3tt enginn hafi sagt nein t\u00f6fraor\u00f0, og tekur til vi\u00f0 eitthva\u00f0 uppbyggilegra.<\/p>\n
-V\u00e1, sag\u00f0i hann.
\n-Mmmm. \u00c9g g\u00e6ti vanist \u00feessu, sag\u00f0i \u00e9g. Svona \u00feegar \u00e9g er h\u00e6tt a\u00f0 kl\u00edna hori \u00ed r\u00famf\u00f6tin, b\u00e6tti \u00e9g vi\u00f0 \u00ed huganum en var \u00feegar b\u00fain a\u00f0 tu\u00f0a n\u00f3g um a\u00f0 \u00feetta yr\u00f0i ekki alltaf \u00feannig, svo \u00e9g sleppti \u00fev\u00ed.
\n-J\u00e1, veistu, \u00e9g held a\u00f0 \u00e9g g\u00e6ti \u00fea\u00f0 bara l\u00edka.<\/p>\n
-Langar \u00feig nokku\u00f0 a\u00f0 fara?
\n-Nei. Eiginlega ekki.
\n-\u00de\u00fa fengir heldur ekkert a\u00f0 fara. \u00c9g \u00e6tla a\u00f0 hafa \u00feig h\u00e9r \u00ed alla n\u00f3tt, sag\u00f0i hann og vaf\u00f0i sig utan um mig, eins og hann \u00e6tla\u00f0i aldrei a\u00f0 sleppa af m\u00e9r takinu.
\n-Skr\u00fdti\u00f0. \u00de\u00f3tt \u00feetta hafi ekki veri\u00f0 eins og \u00e9g haf\u00f0i hugsa\u00f0 m\u00e9r, l\u00ed\u00f0ur m\u00e9r samt mj\u00f6g vel.
\n-N\u00fa hva\u00f0 haf\u00f0ir\u00f0u hugsa\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r?
\n-\u00c9g \u00e6tla\u00f0i allavega ekki a\u00f0 fara a\u00f0 grenja. (Fokk \u00ed helviti, er \u00e9g n\u00fa a\u00f0 taka \u00fea\u00f0 upp aftur. Af hverju leyfi \u00e9g honum ekki gleyma \u00fev\u00ed?)
\n-\u00dea\u00f0 var n\u00fa bara af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00feetta skiptir \u00feig svo miklu m\u00e1li.
\n-\u00dea\u00f0 ver\u00f0ur n\u00e1tt\u00farulega bara a\u00f0 vera \u00ed lagi h\u00e9\u00f0an af en \u00e9g haf\u00f0i n\u00fa samt ekki hugsa\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00feetta svona. \u00c9g ver\u00f0 ekki falleg \u00feegar \u00e9g gr\u00e6t.
\n-\u00de\u00fa ert alltaf falleg.
\n\u00dea\u00f0 er lygi sem \u00e9g get lifa\u00f0 vi\u00f0, hugsa\u00f0i \u00e9g en \u00e1kva\u00f0 a\u00f0 vekja ekki athygli hans \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri lygi. Stundum hentar sj\u00e1lfsblekking annarra m\u00e9r \u00e1g\u00e6tlega og \u00fea\u00f0 var au\u00f0vita\u00f0 hugsanlegt a\u00f0 hann try\u00f0i \u00feessari vitleysu sj\u00e1lfur. \u00d3\u00fearfi a\u00f0 ey\u00f0ileggja \u00fea\u00f0. Auk \u00feess hef \u00e9g l\u00edklega veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 fiska eftir vi\u00f0urkenningu fyrst \u00e9g l\u00e9t \u00ed lj\u00f3si efasemdir um fegur\u00f0 m\u00edna og \u00fea\u00f0 er \u00f3\u00feolandi \u00feegar f\u00f3lk \u00feiggur ekki \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00fea\u00f0 sj\u00e1lft hefur be\u00f0i\u00f0 um.<\/p>\n
-\u00c9g haf\u00f0i heldur ekki hugsa\u00f0 m\u00e9r a\u00f0 byrja \u00e1 bl\u00e6\u00f0ingum \u00ed mi\u00f0jum kl\u00ed\u00f0um.
\n-Ef \u00e9g \u00e1 a\u00f0 vera alveg hreinskilinn \u00fe\u00e1 er \u00fea\u00f0 n\u00fa ekki \u00fea\u00f0 sem m\u00e9r finnst standa upp \u00far.
\n-Og \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00e9g hef\u00f0i s\u00e9\u00f0 hvorttveggja fyrir \u00e6tti \u00e9g samt ekki a\u00f0 vera svo hall\u00e6risleg a\u00f0 bi\u00f0jast afs\u00f6kunar \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed, sag\u00f0i \u00e9g og \u00e1tta\u00f0i mig um lei\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00e9g var farin a\u00f0 bi\u00f0jast afs\u00f6kunar \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 bi\u00f0jast afs\u00f6kunar \u00e1 sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r.<\/p>\n
-Kosturinn er s\u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00feetta getur bara or\u00f0i\u00f0 betra, sag\u00f0i \u00e9g \u00f6llu borubrattari, velti m\u00e9r vi\u00f0 og settist ofan \u00e1 hann.
\nHann l\u00e1 kyrr og horf\u00f0i \u00e1 mig me\u00f0 \u00feessu \u00edbyggna brosi sem gefur til kynna a\u00f0 hann s\u00e9 a\u00f0 velta \u00fev\u00ed fyrir s\u00e9r hversu vi\u00f0eigandi s\u00e9 a\u00f0 or\u00f0a hugsanir s\u00ednar. Svo dr\u00f3 hann mig til s\u00edn, teyg\u00f0i sig \u00ed rofann \u00e1 n\u00e1ttlampanum og sag\u00f0i:
\n-\u00de\u00fa vaknar alltaf snemma \u00e1 morgnana er \u00fea\u00f0 ekki?
\nOg \u00fe\u00f3tt lj\u00f3si\u00f0 v\u00e6ri sl\u00f6kkt leyndi r\u00f6ddin engu af \u00fev\u00ed sem \u00e9g hef\u00f0i annars lesi\u00f0 \u00far augum hans.<\/p>\n
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F\u00f3lk \u00ed Hollywoodmyndum getur gr\u00e1ti\u00f0 fallega. L\u00edka stj\u00f3rnm\u00e1lamenn sem \u00feurfa a\u00f0 bi\u00f0jast afs\u00f6kunar. T\u00e1r blikandi \u00e1 hvarmi. Fallega, n\u00e1nast tignarlega. F\u00ednlegar viprur kringum munnvikin vekja \u00feessa vi\u00f0kv\u00e6mnislegu sam\u00fa\u00f0 me\u00f0 \u00f6llu sem gr\u00e6tur, kannski hl\u00fdju, huggunarhv\u00f6t e\u00f0a verndar\u00fer\u00e1 en ekki tilfinningu … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa