M\u00e9r fannst \u00fea\u00f0 \u00feversagnakennt. H\u00e1lfger\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0g\u00e1ta. Ekki var hann b\u00e6ldur og inn\u00ed sig, svo miki\u00f0 var v\u00edst, enda missti \u00e9g \u00e1hugann \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a s\u00e1lfr\u00e6\u00f0ingur fyrir margt l\u00f6ngu og held a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00feyrfti verulega st\u00f3rt \u00e1fall til a\u00f0 nenna a\u00f0 eiga b\u00e6ldan k\u00e6rasta.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g kom \u00fev\u00ed ekki alveg heim og saman a\u00f0 ma\u00f0ur sem \u00e1tti ekki \u00ed neinum vandr\u00e6\u00f0um me\u00f0 a\u00f0 halda uppi hr\u00f3kasamr\u00e6\u00f0um vi\u00f0 \u00f3kunnugt f\u00f3lk, var greinilega n\u00f3gu sj\u00e1lfs\u00f6ruggur til a\u00f0 s\u00fdna vi\u00f0kv\u00e6mar tilfinningar af fyrra brag\u00f0i og \u00e1n s\u00e9rstakar hvatningar og haf\u00f0i til a\u00f0 bera hugrekki til a\u00f0 r\u00e6\u00f0a helstu veikleika s\u00edna afdr\u00e1ttarlaust, seg\u00f0i samt n\u00e1nast aldrei neitt um sj\u00e1lfan sig \u00f3spur\u00f0ur.<\/p>\n
Kannski var \u00fea\u00f0 fort\u00ed\u00f0ardraugur. Kannski haf\u00f0i hann or\u00f0i\u00f0 fyrir hro\u00f0alegu \u00e1falli \u00ed \u00e6sku, einhverju sem rifja\u00f0ist upp og n\u00edsti hjarta hans \u00ed hvert sinn sem hann nota\u00f0i or\u00f0i\u00f0 ‘\u00e9g’. Kannski haf\u00f0i hann eitthva\u00f0 a\u00f0 fela og var hr\u00e6ddur um a\u00f0 koma upp um sig ef hann k\u00e6mist \u00e1 flug \u00ed \u00e6vis\u00f6gunni. M\u00e9r fannst a\u00f0 v\u00edsu \u00f3tr\u00falegt a\u00f0 hann v\u00e6ri me\u00f0 ni\u00f0urgrafi\u00f0 l\u00edk \u00ed gar\u00f0inum en \u00fea\u00f0 gat svosem veri\u00f0 eitthva\u00f0…<\/p>\n
S\u00e1 sem talar ekki um sj\u00e1lfan sig hl\u00fdtur a\u00f0 eiga vi\u00f0 einhver vandam\u00e1l a\u00f0 str\u00ed\u00f0a. Ekki er hann \u00e1 t\u00far svo \u00fea\u00f0 hl\u00fdtur a\u00f0 vera eitthva\u00f0 alvarlegt, hugsa\u00f0i \u00e9g. \u00c9g ger\u00f0i nokkar varf\u00e6rnislegar tilraunir til a\u00f0 vei\u00f0a leyndarm\u00e1li\u00f0 upp \u00far honum en hvernig sem \u00e9g plotta\u00f0i og p\u00e6ldi var \u00e9g engu n\u00e6r. \u00c9g hef velt \u00feessu fyrir m\u00e9r fram og til baka og var satt a\u00f0 segja l\u00f6gst \u00ed internetleit a\u00f0 fyrirb\u00e6rinu „menn sem vir\u00f0ast tilfinningalega opnir og \u00f6ruggir en tala samt ekkert um sj\u00e1lfa sig“ me\u00f0 engum \u00e1rangri. Undarlegt nokk datt m\u00e9r samt ekki \u00ed hug a\u00f0 spyrja vi\u00f0fang p\u00e6linga minna. Um a\u00f0 gera a\u00f0 leita langt yfir skammt. Svari\u00f0 vi\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0g\u00e1tunni um dularfulla, sterka manninn kom svo til m\u00edn eins og af tilviljun fyrir nokkrum d\u00f6gum: Jamm. Og \u00fear hafi\u00f0 \u00fei\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0. Sumt f\u00f3lk f\u00e6r mest \u00fat \u00far \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 sko\u00f0a eitthva\u00f0 n\u00fdtt og nennir t.d. ekki a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 s\u00f6mu b\u00ed\u00f3myndina tvisvar. \u00c9g aftur \u00e1 m\u00f3ti hef yndi af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 n\u00fdja fleti \u00e1 g\u00f6mlum hlutum. \u00c9g er ekki b\u00fain a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 kvikmynd fyrr en \u00e9g hef horft \u00e1 hana \u00ferisvar sinnum og r\u00e6tt hana vi\u00f0 fimm manns me\u00f0 misjafnar sko\u00f0anir \u00e1 henni. \u00dea\u00f0 var semsagt ekkert anna\u00f0 en \u00feessi \u00f3l\u00edka s\u00fdn \u00e1 skemmtanagildi sj\u00e1lfs\u00e6visagna sem rugla\u00f0i mig \u00ed r\u00edminu en \u00e9g haf\u00f0i falli\u00f0 kyllifl\u00f6t fyrir kvenlegri tilhneigingu minni til a\u00f0 \u00e1lykta a\u00f0 dj\u00fapar s\u00e1lfr\u00e6\u00f0ilegar fl\u00e6kjur liggi \u00e1 bak vi\u00f0 allt sem kemur m\u00e9r \u00e1 \u00f3vart.<\/p>\n Semsagt, ge\u00f0b\u00f3lgufr\u00edtt eintak. \u00dea\u00f0 hl\u00fdtur a\u00f0 vera mikill fengur. \u00c9g get \u00fe\u00e1 l\u00edklega sleppt \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a m\u00e9r \u00fati un sk\u00f3flu og stinga upp bakgar\u00f0inn hj\u00e1 honum.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" M\u00e9r fannst \u00fea\u00f0 \u00feversagnakennt. H\u00e1lfger\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0g\u00e1ta. Ekki var hann b\u00e6ldur og inn\u00ed sig, svo miki\u00f0 var v\u00edst, enda missti \u00e9g \u00e1hugann \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a s\u00e1lfr\u00e6\u00f0ingur fyrir margt l\u00f6ngu og held a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00feyrfti verulega st\u00f3rt \u00e1fall til a\u00f0 nenna … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa
\n-\u00c9g er alveg til \u00ed a\u00f0 segja \u00fe\u00e9r \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00fe\u00fa spyr\u00f0 um en \u00e9g hef kannski ekki miki\u00f0 frumkv\u00e6\u00f0i a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 r\u00e6\u00f0a sj\u00e1lfan mig. \u00c9g hef bara ekkert \u00fea\u00f0 gaman af \u00fev\u00ed sem eru engar n\u00fdjar uppl\u00fdsingar fyrir mig,<\/em> sag\u00f0i hann og votta\u00f0i ekki fyrir neinum leifum af dj\u00fapst\u00e6\u00f0um s\u00e1rsauka \u00far frumbernsku, hvorki \u00ed r\u00f6dd hans n\u00e9 augum.<\/p>\n