\u00c1 sex vikum ger\u00f0ist eftirfarandi:<\/p>\n
1 \u00a0Systir m\u00edn lenti \u00e1 gj\u00f6rg\u00e6slu og hluti af lunganu var fjarl\u00e6g\u00f0ur. M\u00e9r br\u00e1 illa \u00feegar \u00e9g s\u00e1 hva\u00f0 h\u00fan var miki\u00f0 veik og j\u00e1ta \u00fe\u00e1 sj\u00e1lfl\u00e6gni a\u00f0 \u00feetta triggera\u00f0i \u00e1hyggjur af m\u00ednu eigin heilsufari. \u00c9g er me\u00f0 n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega s\u00f6mu einkenni og h\u00fan hefur haft \u00ed m\u00f6rg \u00e1r. Ekkert vekur m\u00e9r jafn mikla skelfingu og hugmyndin um a\u00f0 missa heilsuna og \u00feetta f\u00e9kk n\u00f3gu miki\u00f0 \u00e1 mig til a\u00f0 \u00e9g h\u00e6tti \u00ed magadansi til a\u00f0 hl\u00edfa lungunum \u00ed m\u00e9r.<\/p>\n
2 \u00c9g leig\u00f0i \u00fat heimili\u00f0 mitt, a\u00f0 hluta vegna \u00f6rv\u00e6ntingar yfir \u00f3\u00e6skilegu samskiptamynstri vi\u00f0 barni\u00f0 mitt og a\u00f0 hluta til a\u00f0 milda fyrirsj\u00e1anleg fj\u00e1rhagsvandr\u00e6\u00f0i. \u00dea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri \u00f3e\u00f0lilegt ef \u00e9g s\u00e6i ekki d\u00e1l\u00edti\u00f0 eftir Evulegasta heimili sem \u00e9g hef nokkurnt\u00edma \u00e1tt en \u00e9g hef ekki v\u00e6lt yfir \u00feessari \u00e1kv\u00f6r\u00f0un (enda er h\u00fan algerlega og eing\u00f6ngu \u00e1 m\u00edna \u00e1byrg\u00f0) heldur gert \u00fea\u00f0 besta \u00far st\u00f6\u00f0unni. Hinsvegar hef \u00e9g eytt t\u00f6luver\u00f0um t\u00edma \u00ed a\u00f0 hugga f\u00f3lk sem kemur \u00feetta ekki vi\u00f0 og \u00e1l\u00edtur a\u00f0 l\u00edf mitt s\u00e9 hi\u00f0 \u00f6murlegasta.<\/p>\n
3 M\u00e9r var stefnt fyrir d\u00f3m. \u00c9g \u00e1tti alveg eins von \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed og hef svosem ekkert veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 arm\u00e6\u00f0ast yfir \u00fev\u00ed heldur lag\u00f0ist \u00e9g \u00ed lagalestur til a\u00f0 geta vari\u00f0 mig sj\u00e1lf ef \u00e9g fengi ekki \u00feann l\u00f6gfr\u00e6\u00f0ing sem \u00e9g vildi. F\u00e9kk hann svo reyndar, galdrar virka.<\/p>\n
4 B\u00edllinn minn lenti \u00ed \u00e1rekstri og \u00e9g h\u00e9lt a\u00f0 hann v\u00e6ri \u00f3n\u00fdtur. \u00c9g \u00feakka\u00f0i fyrir a\u00f0 enginn slasa\u00f0ist og s\u00e6tti mig vi\u00f0 tilhugsunina um a\u00f0 vera b\u00edllaus um t\u00edma. \u00deurfti \u00fea\u00f0 reyndar ekki og var \u00fe\u00f3 ekki b\u00fain a\u00f0 fremja neinar almennilegar galdrak\u00fanstir. Pegasus virkar.<\/p>\n
5 T\u00f6lvan m\u00edn f\u00f3r ekki \u00ed gang og m\u00e9r t\u00f3kst me\u00f0 einsk\u00e6rum aulah\u00e6tti a\u00f0 ey\u00f0ileggja grunninn sem fyrirt\u00e6ki\u00f0 mitt er byggt \u00e1. \u00c9g f\u00e9kk ofsalega g\u00f3\u00f0a hj\u00e1lp sem \u00e9g er innilega \u00feakkl\u00e1t fyrir en eftir stendur a\u00f0 st\u00f3r hluti af efni b\u00fa\u00f0arinnar glata\u00f0ist \u00fe.m.t. n\u00e1nast fullunni\u00f0 handrit a\u00f0 b\u00f3k um galdrastafi. Auk \u00feess tv\u00f6 sm\u00e1sagnas\u00f6fn sem \u00e9g \u00e1 engin afrit af. Mig langa\u00f0i b\u00e6\u00f0i a\u00f0 leggjast \u00ed sj\u00e1lfsvorkunn og sj\u00e1lfs\u00e1\u00f6kun og \u00e1kva\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 segja sem f\u00e6stum fr\u00e1 \u00feessu \u00ed bili. Vildi frekar nota orku m\u00edna til a\u00f0 endurskrifa b\u00fa\u00f0ina en a\u00f0 reyna a\u00f0 sannf\u00e6ra \u00f3vi\u00f0komandi me\u00f0virkla um a\u00f0 l\u00edf mitt v\u00e6ri samt ekki \u00f3n\u00fdtt. \u00dea\u00f0 er t\u00f6luver\u00f0 vinna eftir enn. H\u00e9r me\u00f0 er \u00feetta uppl\u00fdst, harmarunk, bl\u00f3m og kransar af\u00feakka\u00f0ir, \u00e1n s\u00e9rstakrar vinsemdar.<\/p>\n
6 \u00c9g missti af verkefnum sem \u00e1ttu a\u00f0 skila m\u00e9r n\u00e6gum tekjum til a\u00f0 for\u00f0a m\u00e9r fr\u00e1 yfirdr\u00e1ttarvaxtaskr\u00edmslinu. Af tillitssemi vi\u00f0 hjartastarfsemi a\u00f0standenda \u00e6tla \u00e9g ekki a\u00f0 nefna upph\u00e6\u00f0ina.<\/p>\n
7 \u00c9g upplif\u00f0i l\u00e9legasta m\u00e1nu\u00f0 \u00ed s\u00f6gu Nornab\u00fa\u00f0arinnar og pers\u00f3nulega hef \u00e9g aldrei sta\u00f0i\u00f0 verr fj\u00e1rhagslega. \u00c9g hef ekki lagst \u00ed vol\u00e6\u00f0i yfir \u00fev\u00ed heldur \u00fatvega\u00f0 m\u00e9r fullt af hundlei\u00f0inlegum verkefnum, klippt kreditkorti\u00f0, sagt elskulegum vini m\u00ednum og starfsmanni upp st\u00f6rfum og haldi\u00f0 minni eigin framlei\u00f0slu a\u00f0 k\u00fannum (eins og m\u00e9r finnst \u00fea\u00f0 erfitt) til \u00feess a\u00f0 draga \u00far d\u00fdrari innkaupum.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g hef \u00e1hyggjur af syni m\u00ednum Ygglibr\u00faninni og Heimshornaflakkaranum, \u00e9g sakna Drengsins sem fyllir \u00e6\u00f0ar m\u00ednar af Endorf\u00edni s\u00e1rlega, systur minnar \u00ed \u00fatlandinu ekki s\u00ed\u00f0ur og Kela mest. M\u00e9r ver\u00f0ur \u00f3glatt af tilhugsuninni um a\u00f0 fara \u00fat \u00ed \u00feenna endalausa vetur og er me\u00f0 verki \u00ed kj\u00fakunum. \u00c9g \u00fearf a\u00f0 fara \u00ed m\u00f3\u00f0url\u00edfsa\u00f0ger\u00f0 en er svo hr\u00e6dd vi\u00f0 sv\u00e6fingar a\u00f0 \u00e9g l\u00fdg \u00fev\u00ed hva\u00f0 eftir anna\u00f0 a\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 betra a\u00f0 fresta \u00fev\u00ed \u00fear til um h\u00e6gist. \u00de\u00f3tt \u00e9g muni reyndar ekki eftir einum degi \u00ed l\u00edfi m\u00ednu sem \u00fea\u00f0 hef\u00f0i henta\u00f0 m\u00e9r eitthva\u00f0 s\u00e9rstaklega vel a\u00f0 gangast undir skur\u00f0a\u00f0ger\u00f0.<\/p>\n
\u00deetta eru svosem ekki neinar katastr\u00f3fur en \u00fear sem m\u00f6rg sm\u00e1\u00e1f\u00f6ll koma saman \u00e1 stuttum t\u00edma, \u00fear myndast ge\u00f0b\u00f3lga. Um daginn var m\u00e9r sagt a\u00f0 \u00e9g v\u00e6ri ‘rosalega mislynd’. Fyrstu vi\u00f0br\u00f6g\u00f0 m\u00edn voru \u00feau a\u00f0 m\u00f3tm\u00e6la, \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g held \u00ed einl\u00e6gni a\u00f0 flestir minna vina og vandamanna hef\u00f0u teki\u00f0 svona ra\u00f0b\u00f6ggi t\u00f6luvert verr en \u00e9g og \u00e9g tel mig sannarlega hafa tekist \u00e1 vi\u00f0 ge\u00f0b\u00f3lgu m\u00edna sj\u00e1lf \u00ed sta\u00f0 \u00feess a\u00f0 taka hana \u00fat \u00e1 \u00f6\u00f0rum. M\u00e9r gramdist en \u00e9g \u00e1kva\u00f0 samt a\u00f0 ergja mig ekki \u00e1 \u00feessari \u00fev\u00e6lu heldur l\u00edta \u00e1 hana sem kj\u00e1nalega tilraun til a\u00f0 n\u00e1 undirt\u00f6kum \u00ed samskiptum me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 rugla \u00ed hausnum \u00e1 m\u00e9r.<\/p>\n
Vi\u00f0 n\u00e1nari umhugsun held \u00e9g reyndar a\u00f0 \u00e9g s\u00e9 einum of tortryggin. A\u00f0 \u00feetta hafi kannski ekki veri\u00f0 me\u00f0vitu\u00f0 tilraun til a\u00f0 sl\u00e1 mig \u00fat af laginu, heldur leggi h\u00fan kannski a\u00f0ra merkingu \u00ed or\u00f0i\u00f0 mislyndi en \u00e9g sj\u00e1lf. Finni kannski til \u00f3\u00f6ryggis gagnvart M\u00edunni \u00ed m\u00e9r. \u00c9g get veri\u00f0 eins og M\u00eda litla, syngjandi k\u00e1t gagnvart vinum og fj\u00f6lskyldu \u00e1 sama t\u00edma og \u00e9g er rei\u00f0 \u00fat \u00ed heiminn, p\u00f3lit\u00edkina og heimsku mannskepnunnar. \u00c9g b\u00fdst vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 t\u00f6luvert \u00f3gnvekjandi fyrir \u00fe\u00e1 sem ekki \u00feekkja mig. Allavega sag\u00f0i har\u00f0fullor\u00f0inn vinur minn m\u00e9r einu sinni a\u00f0 hann \u00e6tti \u00ed vandr\u00e6\u00f0um me\u00f0 a\u00f0 horfa \u00e1 M\u00fam\u00edn\u00e1lfanna af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 hann v\u00e6ri svo hr\u00e6ddur vi\u00f0 M\u00edu. Sem gerir \u00fe\u00f3 engum meira mein en a\u00f0 vekja \u00f3\u00fe\u00e6gilegar spurningar. \u00c9g b\u00fdst vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 hann hafi veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00fdkja en \u00f6llu gr\u00edni fylgir nokkur alvara.<\/p>\n
Og n\u00fa er \u00e9g farin \u00ed r\u00e6ktina. \u00c9g er ekkert a\u00f0 gr\u00ednast me\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00c1 sex vikum ger\u00f0ist eftirfarandi: 1 \u00a0Systir m\u00edn lenti \u00e1 gj\u00f6rg\u00e6slu og hluti af lunganu var fjarl\u00e6g\u00f0ur. M\u00e9r br\u00e1 illa \u00feegar \u00e9g s\u00e1 hva\u00f0 h\u00fan var miki\u00f0 veik og j\u00e1ta \u00fe\u00e1 sj\u00e1lfl\u00e6gni a\u00f0 \u00feetta triggera\u00f0i \u00e1hyggjur af m\u00ednu eigin heilsufari. … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa