Og \u00feegar \u00e9g opna\u00f0i p\u00f3sth\u00f3lfi\u00f0 mitt og s\u00e1 netfangi\u00f0 \u00feitt innan um ruslp\u00f3stinn, \u00fe\u00e1 hl\u00fdna\u00f0i m\u00e9r p\u00ednul\u00edti\u00f0 a\u00f0 innan. Ekki \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00e9g hafi ekki \u00e1tt von \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa hef\u00f0ir samband \u00fev\u00ed \u00fea\u00f0 er n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00fe\u00fa gerir \u00ed hvert einasta sinn sem \u00fe\u00fa hefur \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0u til a\u00f0 \u00e6tla a\u00f0 \u00e9g s\u00e9 mi\u00f0ur m\u00edn og einmana. \u00dea\u00f0 hl\u00fdtur a\u00f0 styrkja karlmennsku\u00edmynd \u00fe\u00edna a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 mig \u00ed rusli.<\/p>\n
\u00c6, elskan. \u00dea\u00f0 hl\u00fdtur a\u00f0 vera s\u00e1rsaukafullt a\u00f0 vera svona gagntekinn af minnim\u00e1ttarkennd. Fara \u00ed hn\u00fat \u00ed hvert sinn sem kona skarar fram \u00far \u00fe\u00e9r \u00e1 einhverju \u00f6\u00f0ru svi\u00f0i en k\u00f6kubakstri og bl\u00f3maskreytingum, e\u00f0a leyfir s\u00e9r bara a\u00f0 hafa a\u00f0rar sko\u00f0anir en \u00fe\u00fa. \u00c9g tala n\u00fa ekki um ef h\u00fan gerir sig seka um a\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0ast \u00e1 karlmennsku \u00fe\u00edna me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 f\u00e6ra sterkari r\u00f6k fyrir m\u00e1li s\u00ednu en \u00fe\u00fa r\u00e6\u00f0ur yfir. \u00dea\u00f0 hl\u00fdtur a\u00f0 jafnast \u00e1 vi\u00f0 gott runk a\u00f0 f\u00e1 t\u00e6kif\u00e6ri til a\u00f0 hugga sl\u00edka konu.<\/p>\n
M\u00e1li\u00f0 er bara hjarta\u00f0 mitt a\u00f0 \u00e9g er ekkert \u00ed neinu rusli. Einhver gaur d\u00f6mpa\u00f0i m\u00e9r og \u00fea\u00f0 er alltaf nett f\u00falt. En d\u00f6mps\u00e1ri\u00f0 gr\u00e6r \u00e1 t\u00edunda hluta \u00feess t\u00edma sem sambandi\u00f0 st\u00f3\u00f0 og \u00fea\u00f0 er n\u00fa svosem ekki eins hann hafi veri\u00f0 efni \u00ed s\u00e1luf\u00e9laga. \u00deegar allt kemur til alls er hann bara venjulegur ma\u00f0ur sem skildi mig ekki og haf\u00f0i alls ekki \u00ed hyggju a\u00f0 leyfa m\u00e9r a\u00f0 kynnast s\u00e1linni \u00ed s\u00e9r. Bara ind\u00e6ll og almennilegur ma\u00f0ur sem var svosem \u00f3sk\u00f6p g\u00f3\u00f0ur vi\u00f0 mig, eins og hann er n\u00fa sennilega vi\u00f0 allt f\u00f3lk, en haf\u00f0i \u00fea\u00f0 samt sem \u00e1\u00f0ur \u00ed s\u00e9r a\u00f0 heg\u00f0a s\u00e9r eins og hann v\u00e6ri \u00ed hrei\u00f0urger\u00f0 og segja m\u00e9r svo upp \u00far \u00feurru a\u00f0 honum v\u00e6ri engin alvara me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed. Bara svona \u00e1g\u00e6tis ma\u00f0ur sem \u00feegar allt kemur til alls, kann ekki a\u00f0 meta neitt af \u00fev\u00ed sem gerir mig a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed sem \u00e9g er. Ma\u00f0ur sem var\u00f0 \u00e1stfanginn af rau\u00f0a kj\u00f3lnum m\u00ednum en ekki af karakternum. Og hva\u00f0a missir er svosem a\u00f0 sambandi sem byggir ekki \u00e1 sterkari grunni?<\/p>\n
Takk samt fyrir a\u00f0 bj\u00f3\u00f0a m\u00e9r \u00f6xl til a\u00f0 gr\u00e1ta \u00e1, \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00e9g \u00feurfi ekki \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 halda. \u00dea\u00f0 var fallegt af \u00fe\u00e9r og andartak fann \u00e9g p\u00ednul\u00edti\u00f0 til m\u00edn. F\u00e9kk svona \u00e1 tilfinninguna a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 merkti a\u00f0 \u00e9g skipti \u00feig s\u00e9rst\u00f6ku m\u00e1li. En sama og \u00feegi\u00f0 elskan, \u00fe\u00fa ver\u00f0ur a\u00f0 leita eitthvert anna\u00f0 til a\u00f0 f\u00e1 sta\u00f0festingu \u00e1 karlmennsku \u00feinni.<\/p>\n
Og \u00feegar \u00e9g opna\u00f0i p\u00f3sth\u00f3lfi\u00f0 mitt og s\u00e1 netfangi\u00f0 \u00feitt innan um ruslp\u00f3stinn, \u00fe\u00e1 hl\u00fdna\u00f0i m\u00e9r p\u00ednul\u00edti\u00f0 a\u00f0 innan. Ekki \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00e9g hafi ekki \u00e1tt von \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa hef\u00f0ir samband \u00fev\u00ed \u00fea\u00f0 er n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00fe\u00fa … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa