Einu sinni var ma\u00f0ur sem langa\u00f0i a\u00f0 kv\u00e6nast m\u00e9r. Yfirleitt hefur \u00fea\u00f0 veri\u00f0 \u00f6fugt, \u00fev\u00ed \u00fer\u00e1tt fyrir ann\u00e1la\u00f0 h\u00f3rir\u00ed mitt \u00fati um allar koppagrundir, er \u00e9g mikill a\u00f0d\u00e1andi hj\u00f3nabandsins og finnst ekkert s\u00e9rstakt atri\u00f0i a\u00f0 f\u00f3lk sem \u00e1kve\u00f0ur a\u00f0 b\u00faa saman s\u00e9 helteki\u00f0 af hrifningu.<\/p>\n
\u00c1 \u00feessum t\u00edma var \u00e9g samt ekki tilb\u00fain \u00ed neitt andavinaf\u00e9lag \u00fe\u00f3tt ma\u00f0urinn v\u00e6ri hinn framb\u00e6rilegasti. Var n\u00fdskilin og me\u00f0 bak\u00feanka, haf\u00f0i or\u00f0i\u00f0 b\u00e1lskotin \u00ed barnungum str\u00e1k um sama leyti og lag\u00f0ist \u00ed harmarunk \u00feegar \u00fea\u00f0 gekk ekki upp. Var ekki b\u00fain a\u00f0 jafna mig almennilega \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed og var svo ofan \u00e1 allt saman b\u00fain a\u00f0 hitta st\u00e6rstu \u00e1starsorg unglings\u00e1ranna eftir nokkurra \u00e1ra a\u00f0skilna\u00f0 og var \u00ed ge\u00f0b\u00f3lgu yfir \u00feeirri fjarst\u00e6\u00f0ukenndu hugmynd a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 hef\u00f0u bara veri\u00f0 mist\u00f6k af hans h\u00e1lfu a\u00f0 fara illa me\u00f0 mig, en ekki karaktereinkunn.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g hef\u00f0i kannski \u00e1tt a\u00f0 bi\u00f0ja vin minn a\u00f0 b\u00ed\u00f0a \u00ed nokkra m\u00e1nu\u00f0i og gefa m\u00e9r f\u00e6ri \u00e1 a\u00f0 n\u00e1 \u00e1ttum en m\u00e9r fannst \u00e9g ekki hafa neinn r\u00e9tt til \u00feess a\u00f0 halda annarri manneskju volgri \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 gefa lofor\u00f0 um skuldbindingu, svo \u00e9g sag\u00f0i honum a\u00f0 afskrifa mig. Sem hann og ger\u00f0i. \u00c9g hef oft velt \u00fev\u00ed fyrir m\u00e9r s\u00ed\u00f0an hvort \u00e9g hafi gert mist\u00f6k \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g hef aldrei veri\u00f0 almennilega s\u00e1tt vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 vera einhleyp og ekki hafa \u00e1starsamb\u00f6nd m\u00edn or\u00f0i\u00f0 langl\u00edf. Enda er \u00e1stin ekki til. Hj\u00f3nabandi\u00f0 er hinsvegar til.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g velti \u00fev\u00ed fyrir m\u00e9r hvernig l\u00edf mitt hef\u00f0i or\u00f0i\u00f0. \u00c9g hef\u00f0i or\u00f0i\u00f0 a\u00f0 eignast amk eitt barn til vi\u00f0b\u00f3tar, sem v\u00e6ri \u00fe\u00e1 \u00e1 unglingsaldri \u00ed dag. R\u00f6kr\u00e9tt er a\u00f0 \u00e1lykta a\u00f0 fj\u00e1rhagssta\u00f0a m\u00edn v\u00e6ri betri en \u00e9g er ekki viss. M\u00e9r s\u00fdnist \u00e1 \u00feeim sem \u00e9g \u00feekki a\u00f0 konur tapi yfirleitt t\u00f6luvert miklu f\u00e9 \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 vera \u00ed samb\u00fa\u00f0. \u00c9g hef\u00f0i ekki gert allt sem m\u00e9r s\u00fdnist en \u00e1 hinn b\u00f3ginn hef\u00f0i \u00e9g ekki veri\u00f0 jafn einmana. \u00c9g v\u00e6ri sennilega \u00ed vinnu sem \u00e9g v\u00e6ri \u00f3s\u00e1tt \u00ed og g\u00e6ti ekki teki\u00f0 eins mikinn \u00fe\u00e1tt \u00ed grasr\u00f3tarstarfi en \u00e9g v\u00e6ri sennilega l\u00edka b\u00fain a\u00f0 druslast til a\u00f0 gefa \u00fat sk\u00e1lds\u00f6gu \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g veit a\u00f0 hann hef\u00f0i peppa\u00f0 mig upp og tali\u00f0 m\u00e9r tr\u00fa um a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 skipti m\u00e1li.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g hef\u00f0i horft \u00e1 fleiri kvikmyndir en s\u00e9\u00f0 f\u00e6rri leiks\u00fdningar. \u00c9g hef\u00f0i sennilega sk\u00fara\u00f0 \u00e1l\u00edka marga fermetra eftir sem \u00e1\u00f0ur og lesi\u00f0 \u00e1l\u00edka m\u00f6rg lj\u00f3\u00f0. \u00c9g hef\u00f0i ri\u00f0i\u00f0 meira (vonandi) og drukki\u00f0 minna (ekki svo a\u00f0 skilja a\u00f0 \u00e9g s\u00e9 mikil drykkjukona, hann bara drekkur ekki og \u00e9g drekk sjaldan ein). L\u00edklega hef\u00f0i \u00e9g eytt minni t\u00edma \u00ed a\u00f0 t\u00e6ta h\u00e1rin af f\u00f3tleggjunum \u00e1 m\u00e9r og \u00e9g v\u00e6ri \u00f6rugglega b\u00fain a\u00f0 fj\u00e1rfesta \u00ed hr\u00e6riv\u00e9l.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g sj\u00e1lf. Hvernig hef\u00f0i \u00e9g \u00fer\u00f3ast sem karakter? V\u00e6ri \u00e9g stilltari, \u00f6rari, minni \u00f6fgamanneskja \u00ed vi\u00f0horfum? Kannski hef\u00f0i \u00e9g ekki komi\u00f0 m\u00e9r upp jafn megnri \u00edmugust \u00e1 valdastofnunum. Og \u00fe\u00f3. \u00c9g efast um a\u00f0 samb\u00fa\u00f0 hef\u00f0i breytt neinu um hugsunarh\u00e1tt minn.<\/p>\n
Kannski v\u00e6ri mikilv\u00e6gasta breytringin s\u00fa a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00feyrfti ekki a\u00f0 hugsa mig um \u00e1\u00f0ur en \u00e9g g\u00e6fi upp n\u00e1nasta a\u00f0standanda ef \u00e9g \u00feyrfti a\u00f0 leggjast inn \u00e1 sj\u00fakrah\u00fas.<\/p>\n
Einu sinni var ma\u00f0ur sem langa\u00f0i a\u00f0 kv\u00e6nast m\u00e9r. Yfirleitt hefur \u00fea\u00f0 veri\u00f0 \u00f6fugt, \u00fev\u00ed \u00fer\u00e1tt fyrir ann\u00e1la\u00f0 h\u00f3rir\u00ed mitt \u00fati um allar koppagrundir, er \u00e9g mikill a\u00f0d\u00e1andi hj\u00f3nabandsins og finnst ekkert s\u00e9rstakt atri\u00f0i a\u00f0 f\u00f3lk sem \u00e1kve\u00f0ur a\u00f0 b\u00faa … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa