\u00c1 \u00feeim t\u00edma var margt \u00f6\u00f0ruv\u00edsi, eiginlega allt. Nema sumt. \u00dea\u00f0 breytist ekki.<\/p>\n
-\u00dea\u00f0 er svo skr\u00fdti\u00f0 a\u00f0 dau\u00f0inn er \u00fea\u00f0 skiljanlegasta af \u00feessu \u00f6llu, sag\u00f0i \u00e9g vi\u00f0 Carmen og heyr\u00f0i a\u00f0 enskan m\u00edn var farin a\u00f0 smitast af sp\u00e6nska hreimnum hennar. Sag\u00f0i henni svo a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00f3tt hann v\u00e6ri d\u00e1inn v\u00e6ri \u00e9g \u00ed rauninni ekkert sorgm\u00e6ddari en \u00e9g haf\u00f0i or\u00f0i\u00f0 \u00ed \u00f6ll skiptin sem vi\u00f0 slitum sambandinu og a\u00f0 \u00e9g hef\u00f0i d\u00e1l\u00edti\u00f0 samviskubit vegna \u00feess.<\/p>\n
Sag\u00f0i henni svo l\u00edka a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 versta v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 vegna \u00feess a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 h\u00f6f\u00f0um, allavega a\u00f0 nafninu til, sliti\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed, hef\u00f0i \u00e9g \u00ed raun ekki r\u00e9tt til a\u00f0 syrgja hann nema \u00fe\u00e1 bara sem kunningja. En syrg\u00f0i samt og haf\u00f0i samviskubit yfir \u00fev\u00ed l\u00edka. Fannst undarleg klemma a\u00f0 geta ekki gert upp vi\u00f0 mig hvort \u00e9g syrg\u00f0i of miki\u00f0 e\u00f0a of l\u00edti\u00f0 og var auk \u00feess frekar upptekin af \u00fev\u00ed hvort \u00f6\u00f0rum \u00fe\u00e6tti \u00e9g anna\u00f0hvort kaldlynd e\u00f0a s\u00e6ju mig sem dramsj\u00fakan traged\u00edurunkara.<\/p>\n
Carmen t\u00f3kst a\u00f0 lei\u00f0r\u00e9tta \u00fe\u00e1 villukenningu m\u00edna a\u00f0 sorg \u00e6tti a\u00f0 vera:
\na)\u00ed r\u00f6kr\u00e9ttu samhengi vi\u00f0 veruleikann
\nb)\u00f6\u00f0ru f\u00f3lki \u00fe\u00f3knanleg
\nog \u00fea\u00f0 var n\u00fa heilmiki\u00f0 afrek hj\u00e1 henni \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g var sjaldnast tilb\u00fain til a\u00f0 bakka me\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00e9g haf\u00f0i biti\u00f0 \u00ed mig.<\/p>\n
-\u00c9g fr\u00e9tti n\u00fa a\u00f0 hann hef\u00f0i veri\u00f0 eitthva\u00f0 me\u00f0 stelpunni \u00e1 H\u00fasav\u00edk \u00ed sumar, gjamma\u00f0i Georgie sem haf\u00f0i ryksugueyru og t\u00f3kst i\u00f0ulega a\u00f0 segja eitthva\u00f0 fullkomlega \u00f3vi\u00f0eigandi.<\/p>\n
-\u00deegi\u00f0u Georgie og skammastu \u00fe\u00edn. K\u00e6rastinn hennar var a\u00f0 deyja og \u00fea\u00f0 er \u00f3\u00fearfi a\u00f0 angra hana me\u00f0 svona getg\u00e1tum, sag\u00f0i m\u00f3\u00f0ir hans og kva\u00f0 svo sterkt a\u00f0 or\u00f0i a\u00f0 George setti upp sn\u00fa\u00f0 og strunsa\u00f0i \u00fat \u00far eldh\u00fasinu, eins og svo oft \u00e1\u00f0ur. \u00c9g var\u00f0 fegin. M\u00e9r \u00fe\u00f3tti v\u00e6nt um Georgie en krakkaskrattinn haf\u00f0i engan skilning \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 mig langa\u00f0i a\u00f0 tala vi\u00f0 Carmen og var st\u00f6\u00f0ugt a\u00f0 reyna a\u00f0 sn\u00faa talinu a\u00f0 mannkynss\u00f6gu og v\u00edsindum sem var ekki \u00e1 m\u00ednum \u00f3skalista yfir umr\u00e6\u00f0uefni \u00feessa stundina.<\/p>\n
-\u00dea\u00f0 undarlegasta af \u00feessu \u00f6llu er samt a\u00f0 \u00e9g hef ekkert veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 leita a\u00f0 k\u00e6rasta. \u00c9g reikna\u00f0i einhvernveginn me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00feetta yr\u00f0i bara t\u00edmabundi\u00f0. En n\u00fana \u00feegar hann er farinn a\u00f0 eil\u00edfu \u00fe\u00e1 er \u00fea\u00f0 fyrsta sem m\u00e9r dettur \u00ed hug a\u00f0 finna m\u00e9r einhvern g\u00f3\u00f0an str\u00e1k og giftast honum, og samt finnst m\u00e9r eins og \u00fea\u00f0 yr\u00f0i einhverskonar framhj\u00e1hald, sag\u00f0i \u00e9g.<\/p>\n
Carmen leit mig \u00fe\u00fd\u00f0ingarmiklu augnar\u00e1\u00f0i og \u00e9g bj\u00f3 mig undir sk\u00edrl\u00edfispredikun me\u00f0 bah\u00e1\u00b4\u00ed-ka\u00fe\u00f3lsku \u00edvafi og v\u00edsunum \u00ed \u00edmynda\u00f0a skynsemd m\u00edna og sj\u00e1lfstj\u00f3rn. Af einhverjum dularfullum \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0um \u00e1leit Carmen a\u00f0 \u00e9g v\u00e6ri mikil fyrirmynd annarra unglinga hva\u00f0 var\u00f0a\u00f0i sj\u00e1lfsaga og fyirhyggju. H\u00fan nefndi ekki sk\u00edrl\u00edfi einu or\u00f0i. Horf\u00f0i bara \u00e1 mig og sag\u00f0i:
\n-Ekki finna \u00fe\u00e9r k\u00e6rasta strax. B\u00edddu eftir Georgie. \u00dei\u00f0 eru\u00f0 vinir og hann er g\u00f3\u00f0ur str\u00e1kur.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g skellti upp \u00far \u00fer\u00e1tt fyrir andlegt \u00e1stand mitt. \u00dea\u00f0 var alveg r\u00e9tt hj\u00e1 henni. Georgie var g\u00f3\u00f0ur str\u00e1kur. Alveg \u00e1g\u00e6tur 13 \u00e1ra str\u00e1kur.<\/p>\n
-\u00dea\u00f0 eru ekki nema fj\u00f6gur \u00e1r \u00e1 milli ykkar. \u00c9g veit a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 hlj\u00f3mar miki\u00f0 \u00ed dag en eftir 3 \u00e1r ver\u00f0ur hann tilb\u00fainn og eftir 10 \u00e1r skiptir aldursmunurinn engu m\u00e1li. Georgie er kl\u00e1r str\u00e1kur, hann ver\u00f0ur r\u00edkur og \u00fea\u00f0 er bara gott fyrir \u00feig a\u00f0 hafa forskot. Hann tekur mark \u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r og \u00fe\u00fa getur m\u00f3ta\u00f0 hann.<\/p>\n
J\u00e1, \u00feetta sag\u00f0i n\u00fa elskan h\u00fan Carmen sem vildi fyrir alla muni f\u00e1 mig sem tengdad\u00f3ttur, ekki veit \u00e9g af hverju. \u00c9g brosti \u00fat \u00ed anna\u00f0 og hristi h\u00f6fu\u00f0i\u00f0 yfir f\u00e1r\u00e1nleika hugmyndarinnar.<\/p>\n
Viku s\u00ed\u00f0ar hitti \u00e9g Hilmar og t\u00e6pum 7 m\u00e1nu\u00f0um eftir andl\u00e1t vinar m\u00edns giftist \u00e9g honum. \u00c9g eigna\u00f0ist me\u00f0 honum tvo yndislega drengi og Georgie var heimagangur hj\u00e1 okkur \u00e1 me\u00f0an vi\u00f0 bjuggum \u00ed Hafnarfir\u00f0i. \u00c9g hef aldrei liti\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00fea\u00f0 sem mist\u00f6k a\u00f0 giftast Hilmari \u00fe\u00f3tt kannski hef\u00f0i veri\u00f0 skynsamlegra a\u00f0 hinkra \u00fear til kransarnir f\u00f6lnu\u00f0u \u00e1 lei\u00f0inu. \u00dea\u00f0 var gott \u00e1 me\u00f0an \u00fea\u00f0 var og svo var \u00fea\u00f0 b\u00fai\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 kom nefnilega \u00e1 daginn 4 \u00e1rum s\u00ed\u00f0ar a\u00f0 \u00ed rauninni var hann ekki alveg tilb\u00fainn \u00ed hj\u00f3naband. Ekki erfi\u00f0a hlutann af \u00fev\u00ed allavega. Ekki \u00e9g heldur ef \u00fev\u00ed er a\u00f0 skipta.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g hef ekki s\u00e9\u00f0 Georgie \u00ed m\u00f6rg \u00e1r en s\u00ed\u00f0ustu \u00e1rin hef \u00e9g stundum velt \u00fev\u00ed fyrir m\u00e9r hvernig l\u00edf mitt hef\u00f0i or\u00f0i\u00f0 ef \u00e9g hef\u00f0i fari\u00f0 a\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0um Carmenar og be\u00f0i\u00f0 eftir Georgie.<\/p>\n
Reyndar finnst m\u00e9r stundum a\u00f0 allt mitt l\u00edf hafi \u00e9g veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 b\u00ed\u00f0a eftir einhverjum eins og Georgie. Einhverjum sem er \u00f3sk\u00f6p g\u00f3\u00f0ur str\u00e1kur en er bara ekki tilb\u00fainn og ekkert h\u00e6gt a\u00f0 gera \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed nema b\u00ed\u00f0a. Kannski hef\u00f0u \u00ferj\u00fa \u00e1r bara duga\u00f0 eftir allt saman.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00c1 \u00feeim t\u00edma var margt \u00f6\u00f0ruv\u00edsi, eiginlega allt. Nema sumt. \u00dea\u00f0 breytist ekki. -\u00dea\u00f0 er svo skr\u00fdti\u00f0 a\u00f0 dau\u00f0inn er \u00fea\u00f0 skiljanlegasta af \u00feessu \u00f6llu, sag\u00f0i \u00e9g vi\u00f0 Carmen og heyr\u00f0i a\u00f0 enskan m\u00edn var farin a\u00f0 smitast af sp\u00e6nska … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa