Eg\u00f3b\u00fasti\u00f0 sem \u00fe\u00fa finnur fyrir \u00feegar f\u00f3lk treystir \u00fe\u00e9r fyrir s\u00e1l sinni er \u00fe\u00e9r nau\u00f0synlegt, \u00e9g veit \u00fea\u00f0, vi\u00f0 erum \u00f6ll svona a\u00f0 einhverju leyti. En \u00fe\u00fa gengur of langt. \u00dea\u00f0 er h\u00e6ttulegur leikur a\u00f0 vinna hjarta mannveru sem \u00fe\u00fa \u00e6tlar ekki a\u00f0 skuldbindast og ef \u00fe\u00fa horfist ekki \u00ed augu vi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 sta\u00f0reynd a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa ert a\u00f0 leika \u00fe\u00e9r a\u00f0 eldi, \u00fe\u00e1 muntu skilja eftir \u00feig svi\u00f0na j\u00f6r\u00f0 hvar sem \u00fe\u00fa fer\u00f0. Da\u00f0ur \u00feitt vi\u00f0 h\u00e1rf\u00ednu l\u00ednuna milli tilfinningalegrar skynjunar og er\u00f3t\u00edskrar mun fyrr e\u00f0a s\u00ed\u00f0ar koma \u00fe\u00e9r sj\u00e1lfum \u00ed vandr\u00e6\u00f0i a\u00f0 ma\u00f0ur tali n\u00fa ekki um ska\u00f0ann sem \u00fe\u00fa getur valdi\u00f0 \u00e1 tilfinningal\u00edfi annarra.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g d\u00e6mi \u00feig ekki. \u00c9g hef snert \u00feessa l\u00ednu sj\u00e1lf. \u00de\u00fa ver\u00f0ur a\u00f0 gera \u00fe\u00e9r grein fyrir \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00feegar \u00fe\u00fa f\u00e6r\u00f0 f\u00f3lk til a\u00f0 hleypa \u00fe\u00e9r alla lei\u00f0 a\u00f0 hjarta s\u00ednu ertu um lei\u00f0 a\u00f0 gefa \u00feau skilabo\u00f0 a\u00f0 samband ykkar s\u00e9 \u00e1 alveg s\u00e9rst\u00f6ku plani, \u00fe\u00fa s\u00e9rt ekki bara einhver \u00f3vi\u00f0komandi ma\u00f0ur sem hefur notalega n\u00e6rveru heldur n\u00e1inn vinur, verndari e\u00f0a k\u00e6rasti. Eina lei\u00f0in til a\u00f0 komast hj\u00e1 \u00feeirri kr\u00f6fu er formlegt samband lei\u00f0beinanda og skj\u00f3lst\u00e6\u00f0ings, hvort sem \u00fe\u00fa ert l\u00e6knir, s\u00e1lfr\u00e6\u00f0ingur, prestur e\u00f0a kennari. Jafnvel \u00ed sl\u00edkum samb\u00f6ndum er veruleg h\u00e6tta \u00e1 a\u00f0 m\u00f6rkin ver\u00f0i \u00f3sk\u00fdr.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g \u00feekki mann sem var eins og \u00fe\u00fa. Me\u00f0 g\u00edfurlegan \u00e1huga \u00e1 tilfinningal\u00edfi manneskjunnar og \u00feennan s\u00e9rstaka h\u00e6fileika til a\u00f0 vekja tr\u00fana\u00f0artraust. Me\u00f0 gott hjartalag og sama eldlega \u00e1hugann og \u00fe\u00fa \u00e1 \u00f6llu sem g\u00e6ti b\u00e6tt l\u00ed\u00f0an f\u00f3lks sem \u00e1 b\u00e1gt. Einu sinni spur\u00f0i \u00e9g hann hva\u00f0 hann myndi velja ef honum g\u00e6fist f\u00e6ri \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed \u00e1n fyrirhafnar a\u00f0 vinna eitt afrek sem k\u00e6mi honum \u00e1 spj\u00f6ld s\u00f6gunnar. Hann \u00feurfti ekki a\u00f0 hugsa sig um, vildi finna lei\u00f0 til a\u00f0 \u00fatr\u00fdma kabbameini.<\/p>\n
F\u00f6gur s\u00e1l, vissulega en samt sem \u00e1\u00f0ur hefur hann fari\u00f0 svo hryllilega illa me\u00f0 svo marga. \u00cd dag held \u00e9g a\u00f0 hann hafi ekki v\u00edsvitandi leiki\u00f0 s\u00e9r a\u00f0 tilfinningum f\u00f3lks, bara veri\u00f0 of sj\u00e1lfsmi\u00f0a\u00f0ur til a\u00f0 velta \u00fev\u00ed fyrir s\u00e9r og takast \u00e1 vi\u00f0 \u00e1byrg\u00f0ina. Hann vildi f\u00e1 p\u00e1verkikki\u00f0 en hlj\u00f3pst undan \u00e1byr\u00f0inni sem fylgir \u00fev\u00ed. \u00c1 endanum var hann saka\u00f0ur um kynfer\u00f0islega \u00e1reitni og honum fannst \u00fea\u00f0 \u00f3sanngjarnt enda hreint enginn ofbeldisma\u00f0ur.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g b\u00fdst vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r finnist \u00fea\u00f0 hlj\u00f3ma undarlega en \u00fea\u00f0 skiptir ekki \u00f6llu m\u00e1li hversu gr\u00f3ft \u00fea\u00f0 var og hversu langan t\u00edma \u00fea\u00f0 st\u00f3\u00f0 e\u00f0a hvort \u00feetta meinta k\u00e1f \u00e1tti s\u00e9r yfirh\u00f6fu\u00f0 sta\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 sem skiptir m\u00e1li er a\u00f0 skilabo\u00f0in sem hann gaf st\u00falkunni voru \u00feessi; \u00fe\u00f3tt vi\u00f0 getum kannski ekki veri\u00f0 k\u00e6rustupar svona opinberlega er samband okkar alveg s\u00e9rstakt. \u00c9g ver\u00f0 alltaf til sta\u00f0ar fyrir \u00feig af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa gefur m\u00e9r s\u00e1lina \u00far \u00fe\u00e9r.<\/em> H\u00fan tr\u00fa\u00f0i \u00fev\u00ed. Haf\u00f0i enga \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0u til annars.<\/p>\n Hann var ekki n\u00ed\u00f0ingur \u00ed vi\u00f0tekinni merkingu. Hann var ekki a\u00f0 svala f\u00fdsnum s\u00ednum \u00e1 skelfingu lostnu f\u00f3rnarlambi. L\u00edklega hefur hann aldrei \u00e1tt neinar kynfer\u00f0islegar fantas\u00edur \u00fear sem h\u00fan kom vi\u00f0 s\u00f6gu. Engin l\u00edkamleg valdbeiting \u00e1tti s\u00e9r sta\u00f0 og a\u00f0 \u00f6llum l\u00edkindum hefur h\u00fan \u00e1tt frumkv\u00e6\u00f0i\u00f0 a\u00f0 snertingunni sem orsaka\u00f0i \u00f6ll l\u00e6tin -jafnvel bara \u00edmynda\u00f0 s\u00e9r hana.Samt var hann \u00e1byrgur. \u00c1byrg\u00f0 hans l\u00e1 fyrst og fremst \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 mynda tilfinningatengsl sem hann hef\u00f0i ekki sta\u00f0i\u00f0 undir jafnvel \u00fe\u00f3tt hann hef\u00f0i vilja\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 (og tr\u00fa\u00f0u m\u00e9r hann vildi \u00fea\u00f0 ekki frekar en \u00fe\u00fa) og sta\u00f0festa \u00feau me\u00f0 snertingu sem flest f\u00f3lk skilur sem tj\u00e1ningu \u00e1star og losta.<\/p>\n \u00c9g s\u00e9 bliki\u00f0 \u00ed augum \u00fe\u00e9r \u00feegar \u00fe\u00fa brosir \u00edbyggilega og segir: \u00e9g get fengi\u00f0 hvern sem er til a\u00f0 segja m\u00e9r hva\u00f0 sem er og \u00e9g \u00fearf ekki einu sinni a\u00f0 spyrja.<\/em> \u00c9g finn hva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa finnur til \u00fe\u00edn og \u00e9g veit ekki hvernig \u00e9g \u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00fatsk\u00fdra fyrir \u00fe\u00e9r \u00ed hverju si\u00f0blinda \u00fe\u00edn liggur. Og n\u00fa \u00feegar \u00e9g horfi \u00e1 \u00feig va\u00f0a rakleitt inn \u00e1 einkasv\u00e6\u00f0i barnungar telpu \u00ed \u00feeim tilgangni a\u00f0 vinna hjarta hennar, hvort sem \u00fea\u00f0 er n\u00fa me\u00f0vita\u00f0 e\u00f0a ekki, ver\u00f0 \u00e9g r\u00e1\u00f0villt. \u00deetta v\u00e6ri kannski einfaldara ef \u00fe\u00fa gengir hreint til verks me\u00f0 kynfer\u00f0islegri \u00e1reitni. Jafnvel t\u00e6landi augnar\u00e1\u00f0 g\u00e6ti gefi\u00f0 m\u00e9r tilefni til a\u00f0 skipa \u00fe\u00e9r a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta hana \u00ed fri\u00f0i en \u00e9g veit ekki hvort \u00e9g get \u00e6tlast til a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa skiljir \u00fea\u00f0 ef \u00e9g banna \u00fe\u00e9r a\u00f0 gera hana \u00e1stfangna af \u00fe\u00e9r.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Eg\u00f3b\u00fasti\u00f0 sem \u00fe\u00fa finnur fyrir \u00feegar f\u00f3lk treystir \u00fe\u00e9r fyrir s\u00e1l sinni er \u00fe\u00e9r nau\u00f0synlegt, \u00e9g veit \u00fea\u00f0, vi\u00f0 erum \u00f6ll svona a\u00f0 einhverju leyti. En \u00fe\u00fa gengur of langt. \u00dea\u00f0 er h\u00e6ttulegur leikur a\u00f0 vinna hjarta mannveru sem \u00fe\u00fa … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa