F\u00e9kk p\u00f3st \u00e1 Facebook \u00ed morgun. Fr\u00e1 l\u00edffr\u00e6\u00f0ilegum h\u00e1lfbr\u00f3\u00f0ur m\u00ednum. Hann fr\u00e9tti fyrst af tilvist minni n\u00fana um daginn.<\/p>\n
\u00dea\u00f0 var hann Beggi br\u00f3\u00f0ir minn sem sag\u00f0i honum fr\u00e1 m\u00e9r. \u00deeir eru v\u00edst gamlir vinir, hafa spila\u00f0 saman en Beggi haf\u00f0i ekki hugmynd um a\u00f0 \u00feeir \u00e6ttu s\u00f6mu systur. Beggi \u00e1tta\u00f0i sig \u00e1 \u00feessu \u00feegar m\u00f3\u00f0ir okkar sag\u00f0i honum fr\u00e1 sj\u00fakd\u00f3mnum. Vildi svo til a\u00f0 fa\u00f0ir vinar hans var n\u00fdl\u00e1tinn \u00far sama sj\u00fakd\u00f3mi og nafni\u00f0 stemmdi og heimab\u00e6r hins l\u00e1tna. \u00cdsland er l\u00edti\u00f0.<\/p>\n
Eldri systkinin vissu af m\u00e9r en ekki \u00feeir tveir yngstu. Hann segir a\u00f0 fr\u00e9ttirnar af einni systurinni enn hafi komi\u00f0 s\u00e9r \u00ed uppn\u00e1m. Sag\u00f0i a\u00f0 sig langa\u00f0i a\u00f0 vita hva\u00f0a tilfinningar hr\u00e6r\u00f0ust \u00ed m\u00e9r vegna \u00feessara m\u00e1la allra.<\/p>\n
H\u00e9r er mitt svar.<\/p>\n
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S\u00e6ll …….<\/p>\n
\u00c9g votta \u00fe\u00e9r sam\u00fa\u00f0 m\u00edna vegna fr\u00e1falls f\u00f6\u00f0ur \u00fe\u00edns.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g \u00e1 f\u00f6\u00f0ur sem hefur reynst m\u00e9r vel og hef alltaf \u00e1tt erfitt me\u00f0 a\u00f0 s\u00e6tta mig vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 vera ekki l\u00edffr\u00e6\u00f0ileg d\u00f3ttir hans. Get ekki \u00fatsk\u00fdrt hversvegna, \u00fev\u00ed bl\u00f3\u00f0tengsl skipta svosem engu m\u00e1li nema vegna h\u00e6ttunnar \u00e1 a\u00f0 ma\u00f0ur vi\u00f0haldi erf\u00f0ag\u00f6llum. \u00dea\u00f0 var allavega s\u00fa afs\u00f6kun sem \u00e9g gaf sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r fyrir a\u00f0 hafa samband vi\u00f0 pabba \u00feinn \u00e1 s\u00ednum t\u00edma. \u00c9g komst a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 hann haf\u00f0i teki\u00f0 tilm\u00e6lum Gvu\u00f0s um a\u00f0 uppfylla j\u00f6r\u00f0ina full b\u00f3kstaflega svo \u00e9g skrifa\u00f0i honum. T\u00f3k fram a\u00f0 \u00e9g v\u00e6ri ekki a\u00f0 gera neitt tilkall til hans en m\u00e9r \u00fe\u00e6tti betra a\u00f0 vita hvort \u00e9g \u00e6tti \u00e1 h\u00e6ttu a\u00f0 hitta n\u00e1na \u00e6ttingja \u00e1 sk\u00f3lab\u00f6llum.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g held samt eftir \u00e1 a\u00f0 hyggja a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 hafi bera veri\u00f0 fyrirsl\u00e1ttur. \u00c9g var unglingur, sj\u00e1lfl\u00e6g og \u00ed leit a\u00f0 sk\u00fdringum \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed hversvegna \u00e9g hugsa\u00f0i \u00e1 allt annan h\u00e1tt en a\u00f0rir \u00ed fj\u00f6lskyldunni. \u00c9g hef l\u00edklega \u00edmynda\u00f0 m\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri einhver erf\u00f0afr\u00e6\u00f0ileg sk\u00fdring \u00e1 \u00e1hugam\u00e1lum og hugmyndum sem enginn haf\u00f0i haft fyrir m\u00e9r, r\u00e9tt eins og \u00feessu lj\u00f3sa h\u00e1ri.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g hitti pabba \u00feinn aldrei og heyr\u00f0i aldrei neitt fr\u00e1 honum. \u00dea\u00f0 er n\u00fa varla h\u00e6gt a\u00f0 gefa unglingi miki\u00f0 sk\u00fdrari skilabo\u00f0 en a\u00f0 hundsa hann en \u00e9g h\u00e9kk samt eins og hundur \u00e1 ro\u00f0i \u00e1 \u00feeirri r\u00e9ttl\u00e6tingu a\u00f0 gen skiptu m\u00e1li og haf\u00f0i upp \u00e1 ……. systur \u00feinni. Hitti hana a\u00f0 mig minnir tvisvar og svo …… br\u00f3\u00f0ur \u00feinn \u00ed eitt skipti nokkrum \u00e1rum s\u00ed\u00f0ar. Tala\u00f0i einu sinni vi\u00f0 ……. (elstu systurina) \u00ed s\u00edma og h\u00fan bau\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00ed heims\u00f3kn en \u00fea\u00f0 kom upp meirih\u00e1ttar vesen heima fyrir og \u00e9g hreinlega gleymdi a\u00f0 m\u00e6ta.<\/p>\n
Systkinin t\u00f3ku m\u00e9r vel en fa\u00f0ir \u00feinn s\u00fdndi hvorki \u00fe\u00e1 n\u00e9 s\u00ed\u00f0ar nein merki \u00feess a\u00f0 k\u00e6ra sig um a\u00f0 vita af tilvist minni svo \u00e9g lag\u00f0i mig ekkert eftir \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 kynnast \u00feeim n\u00e1nar. Enda n\u00f3gu skyns\u00f6m til a\u00f0 kyngja \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 gen skipta ekki m\u00e1li. Ma\u00f0ur erfir hvort sem er ekki h\u00e6fileika e\u00f0a skaplyndi, hugsa\u00f0i \u00e9g, \u00ed mesta lagi h\u00e1ralit og holdafar en \u00fea\u00f0 gerir mann ekki a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed sem ma\u00f0ur er svo \u00e6tli ma\u00f0ur sitji ekki bara uppi me\u00f0 sk\u00f6mmina e\u00f0a hei\u00f0urinn af sj\u00e1lfum s\u00e9r.<\/p>\n
D\u00e1l\u00edti\u00f0 kaldh\u00e6\u00f0nislegt a\u00f0 fr\u00e9tta svo af sj\u00fakd\u00f3mnum. \u00c9g \u00feekki n\u00e1fr\u00e6nku Eddu Hei\u00f0r\u00fanar en hj\u00e1 henni er \u00feetta erf\u00f0atengt og \u00e9g h\u00e9lt fyrst a\u00f0 MND v\u00e6ri einfaldlega erf\u00f0asj\u00fakd\u00f3mur og f\u00e9kk \u00e1fall. Skr\u00fdti\u00f0 a\u00f0 hafa lifa\u00f0 \u00e1ratugi \u00ed \u00feeirri fullvissu a\u00f0 gen skipti ekki m\u00e1li en sj\u00e1 svo \u00e1 einu augnabliki a\u00f0 \u00feau geta reyndar skipt \u00f6llu m\u00e1li. En m\u00e9r skilst a\u00f0 hann hafi ekki veri\u00f0 me\u00f0 arfgenga afbrig\u00f0i\u00f0. \u00c9g er \u00f3sk\u00f6p fegin.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g haf\u00f0i semsagt r\u00e9tt fyrir m\u00e9r \u00feegar \u00e9g var 15 \u00e1ra, erf\u00f0ir skipta m\u00e1li. En \u00fea\u00f0 \u00fearf svosem ekki erf\u00f0ir til a\u00f0 \u00e1tta sig \u00e1 kaldh\u00e6\u00f0nislegum h\u00famor \u00f6rlaganornarnna.<\/p>\n
Takk fyrir a\u00f0 hafa samband og gangi \u00fe\u00e9r allt \u00ed haginn,<\/p>\n
me\u00f0 bestu kve\u00f0ju
\nEva Hauksd\u00f3ttir.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
F\u00e9kk p\u00f3st \u00e1 Facebook \u00ed morgun. Fr\u00e1 l\u00edffr\u00e6\u00f0ilegum h\u00e1lfbr\u00f3\u00f0ur m\u00ednum. Hann fr\u00e9tti fyrst af tilvist minni n\u00fana um daginn. \u00dea\u00f0 var hann Beggi br\u00f3\u00f0ir minn sem sag\u00f0i honum fr\u00e1 m\u00e9r. \u00deeir eru v\u00edst gamlir vinir, hafa spila\u00f0 saman en Beggi … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa