\u00c9g vakna\u00f0i \u00ed bj\u00f6rtu. H\u00e9lt a\u00f0 v\u00e6ri komi\u00f0 langt fram \u00e1 dag en klukkan var bara 7. \u00dea\u00f0 birtir svona miklu fyrr \u00ed Aabenraa en i \u00d8rsta.<\/p>\n
J\u00e1, \u00e9g er semsagt komin heim. Allavega \u00ed bili. Festi ekki yndi \u00ed Noregi sem er \u00fe\u00f3 vafalaust besta land \u00ed heimi ef ma\u00f0ur \u00e1 anna\u00f0bor\u00f0 flytur \u00feanga\u00f0 af einberum \u00e1huga.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g veit ekki hva\u00f0 Bjartur gerir. Hann sag\u00f0ist vera tilb\u00fainn til a\u00f0 b\u00faa \u00ed str\u00e1kofa \u00ed Afr\u00edku bara til a\u00f0 vera hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r en meinti v\u00edst a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri \u00fe\u00f3 h\u00e1\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed skilyr\u00f0i a\u00f0 hann fengi fasta vinnu hj\u00e1 \u00f6ruggu fyrirt\u00e6ki og launin f\u00e6ru ekki undir laun l\u00e6r\u00f0ra i\u00f0na\u00f0armanna \u00ed Noregi. \u00c9g vil f\u00e1’ann svo ef \u00fei\u00f0 viti\u00f0 um svolei\u00f0is d\u00edl \u00ed Danaveldi, me\u00f0 e\u00f0a \u00e1n str\u00e1kofa, \u00fe\u00e1 l\u00e1ti\u00f0 mig vita.<\/p>\n
Jamm \u00e9g vil f\u00e1’ann en hvort \u00e9g \u00fer\u00e1i n\u00e1vist hans n\u00f3gu heitt til a\u00f0 f\u00f3rna heimilinu og flytja \u00e1 sta\u00f0 sem b\u00fd\u00f0ur ekki upp \u00e1 neitt af \u00fev\u00ed sem skiptir mig m\u00e1li, \u00fea\u00f0 \u00e1 n\u00fa bara eftir a\u00f0 koma \u00ed lj\u00f3s.<\/p>\n
\u00c1st er \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 kj\u00f3sa n\u00e1vist einhvers, hvorki meira n\u00e9 minna. \u00dea\u00f0 getur veri\u00f0 eigingj\u00f6rn og \u00f3\u00ferosku\u00f0 \u00e1st og stundum er manni betur borgi\u00f0 me\u00f0 einhverjum sem getur alveg hugsa\u00f0 s\u00e9r a\u00f0 lifa \u00e1n manns en \u00fea\u00f0 er \u00feetta eina atri\u00f0i sem skert \u00far um \u00fea\u00f0 hvort f\u00f3lki er alvara. S\u00e1 sem k\u00fds ekki n\u00e1vist \u00fe\u00edna ofar \u00f6llu \u00f6\u00f0ru elskar \u00feig ekki, hversu g\u00f3\u00f0ur og tillitssamur sem hann er a\u00f0 \u00f6\u00f0ru leyti, svo einfalt er \u00fea\u00f0.<\/p>\n
E\u00f0a \u00fea\u00f0 h\u00e9lt \u00e9g allavega.<\/p>\n
K\u00fds \u00e9g n\u00e1vist hans? Fokk j\u00e1! En ekki ofar \u00f6llu \u00f6\u00f0ru. \u00c9g g\u00e6ti alveg hangi\u00f0 \u00ed Noregi fram \u00ed \u00e1g\u00fast en \u00e9g s\u00e9 bara ekkert sem bendir til \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 ver\u00f0i eitthva\u00f0 au\u00f0veldara fyrir smi\u00f0 a\u00f0 f\u00e1 g\u00f3\u00f0a vinnu \u00ed Danm\u00f6rku \u00fe\u00e1. Sem \u00fe\u00fd\u00f0ir a\u00f0 til a\u00f0 vera me\u00f0 Bjarti \u00fearf \u00e9g a\u00f0 s\u00e6tta mig vi\u00f0 langt\u00edma b\u00fasetu \u00ed Noregi.<\/p>\n
M\u00e9r datt \u00ed hug a\u00f0 k\u00faga hann til a\u00f0 koma me\u00f0 m\u00e9r heim. \u00c9g hef\u00f0i sennilega alveg geta\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 er au\u00f0velt a\u00f0 brj\u00f3ta \u00e1stfangi\u00f0 f\u00f3lk ni\u00f0ur og hann hef\u00f0i sennilega hl\u00fdtt ef \u00e9g hef\u00f0i or\u00f0i\u00f0 brj\u00e1lu\u00f0 e\u00f0a grenja\u00f0 e\u00f0a h\u00f3ta\u00f0 a\u00f0 drepa mig. \u00c9g bara vil ekki svolei\u00f0is samband.<\/p>\n
\u00dea\u00f0 er alveg hugsanlegt a\u00f0 \u00e9g ver\u00f0i j\u00e1kv\u00e6\u00f0ari gagnvart Noregi \u00feegar \u00e9g er b\u00fain a\u00f0 horfast almennilega \u00ed augu vi\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 sem mig grunar, a\u00f0 eina lei\u00f0in til a\u00f0 vera me\u00f0 Bjarti s\u00e9 s\u00fa a\u00f0 flytja \u00feanga\u00f0. \u00c9g vona samt a\u00f0 a\u00f0skilna\u00f0urinn ver\u00f0i til \u00feess a\u00f0 hann sko\u00f0i m\u00f6guleikann \u00e1 a\u00f0 koma til m\u00edn. Og hva\u00f0 er \u00feetta anna\u00f0 en l\u00e1gk\u00faruleg valdabar\u00e1tta? Mig vantar almennilega \u00fe\u00fd\u00f0ingu \u00e1 or\u00f0inu manipulation. Stj\u00f3rnsemi er afleit \u00fe\u00fd\u00f0ing. A\u00f0 ‘manipulera’ einhvern merkir a\u00f0 beita l\u00famskum, s\u00e1lr\u00e6num a\u00f0fer\u00f0um til a\u00f0 stj\u00f3rna \u00f6\u00f0rum. \u00dea\u00f0 ku vera \u00e1rangursr\u00edkara en hreinskipti\u00f0 ofbeldi en \u00e9g er ekki viss um a\u00f0 m\u00e9r ge\u00f0jist \u00fea\u00f0 neitt betur. \u00dear sem \u00e9g kann ekkert \u00edslenskt or\u00f0 sem l\u00fdsir \u00feessu, finnst kl\u00fa\u00f0urslegt a\u00f0 nota heila setningu og enska or\u00f0i\u00f0 fellur illa a\u00f0 \u00edslenskunni, \u00e6tla \u00e9g a\u00f0 nota s\u00f6gnina a\u00f0 plata \u00fear til \u00e9g s\u00e9 betri till\u00f6gu.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g b\u00fdst vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 allir plati einhvern einhvernt\u00edma en sennilega er \u00fea\u00f0 oftast \u00f3me\u00f0vita\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 var ekki \u00fathugsa\u00f0 plott hj\u00e1 Bjarti a\u00f0 flytja fyrst og spyrja svo. Hann er heldur ekki me\u00f0vita\u00f0 a\u00f0 reyna a\u00f0 plata mig \u00feegar hann segist vera tilb\u00fainn til a\u00f0 fara til Danmerkur n\u00e6sta haust. Hann veit samt a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 eru meiri l\u00edkur \u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00e9g skipti um sko\u00f0un en a\u00f0 atvinnuumhverfi\u00f0 \u00ed Danm\u00f6rku gerbreytist \u00e1 nokkrum m\u00e1nu\u00f0um og vonar l\u00edklega \u00ed hjarta s\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00e9g s\u00e6tti mig vi\u00f0 skynsamlegri kost.<\/p>\n
\u00dea\u00f0 er hinsvegar \u00fathugsa\u00f0 plott hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r a\u00f0 fara heim og vona a\u00f0 hann elti mig. Engin \u00f3me\u00f0vitu\u00f0 \u00f3sk heldur er \u00e9g \u00ed rauninni a\u00f0 reyna a\u00f0 plata Bjart til a\u00f0 gera \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00e9g vil. Og er n\u00f3gu s\u00fdkt af tv\u00edskinnungi til a\u00f0 finnast \u00e9g \u00f6gn sk\u00e1rri manneskja en ef \u00e9g hef\u00f0i sett honum afarkosti e\u00f0a frekjast \u00fear til hann l\u00e9ti undan.<\/p>\n
Er \u00e9g s\u00e1tt vi\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfa mig? Nei, eiginlega ekki. \u00deetta er ekki gr\u00f3ft ofbeldi en ofbeldi samt og \u00fea\u00f0 er ekkert \u00e1s\u00e6ttanlegt. En \u00e9g yr\u00f0i heldur ekkert s\u00e1tt vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta plata mig til a\u00f0 flytja til Noregs. \u00de\u00f3tt \u00fea\u00f0 hafi veri\u00f0 \u00f3me\u00f0vita\u00f0 plat hj\u00e1 manni sem hefur \u00fea\u00f0 ekki \u00ed s\u00e9r a\u00f0 k\u00faga neinn. Mig er fari\u00f0 a\u00f0 gruna a\u00f0 ofbeldislaus \u00e1starsamb\u00f6nd s\u00e9u ekki til.<\/p>\n
Hven\u00e6r elskar ma\u00f0ur mann og hven\u00e6r elskar ma\u00f0ur ekki mann? \u00deegar ma\u00f0ur er tilb\u00fainn til a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta hann plata sig e\u00f0a \u00feegar ma\u00f0ur er tilb\u00fainn til a\u00f0 plata hann? \u00deegar allt kemur til alls sn\u00fdst \u00fea\u00f0 ekki bara um a\u00f0 kj\u00f3sa n\u00e1vist einhvers heldur um \u00fea\u00f0 hverju ma\u00f0ur vill f\u00f3rna fyrir \u00fe\u00e1 n\u00e1vist.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00c9g vakna\u00f0i \u00ed bj\u00f6rtu. H\u00e9lt a\u00f0 v\u00e6ri komi\u00f0 langt fram \u00e1 dag en klukkan var bara 7. \u00dea\u00f0 birtir svona miklu fyrr \u00ed Aabenraa en i \u00d8rsta. J\u00e1, \u00e9g er semsagt komin heim. Allavega \u00ed bili. Festi ekki yndi \u00ed … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa