Vakna\u00f0i \u00ed morgun \u00e1 \u00feessum \u00e6gilega El\u00edasarbl\u00fas. M\u00e9r finnst \u00fea\u00f0 undarlegt \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g hef ekkert hugsa\u00f0 neitt meira til \u00fe\u00edn undanfari\u00f0 en \u00e9g er v\u00f6n og \u00ed augnablikinu eru b\u00e1\u00f0ir str\u00e1karnir m\u00ednir og pabbi h\u00e9rna svo ekki er \u00fea\u00f0 af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 mig skorti f\u00e9lagsskap. Kannski hefur mig dreymt \u00feig, \u00e9g man n\u00e6stum aldrei drauma.<\/p>\n
L\u00edf mitt l\u00ed\u00f0ur hj\u00e1 \u00ed fullkomnu tilgangsleysi. Synir m\u00ednir uppkomnir og \u00e9g hef enn ekki gert neitt sem skiptir m\u00e1li. \u00deannig er um flesta b\u00fdst \u00e9g vi\u00f0 og \u00fea\u00f0 er til marks um andlegan dau\u00f0a minn a\u00f0 \u00e9g er svosem \u00f3sk\u00f6p s\u00e1tt. \u00dea\u00f0 eina sem \u00fearf til a\u00f0 gle\u00f0ja mig er a\u00f0 hluti dagsins ver\u00f0i n\u00f3gu hl\u00fdr til a\u00f0 \u00e9g geti seti\u00f0 \u00fati me\u00f0 kaffibolla e\u00f0a hv\u00edtv\u00ednsglas. Au\u00f0vita\u00f0 hef \u00e9g svosem alltaf haft \u00e1n\u00e6gju af \u00fev\u00ed en lengst af vildi \u00e9g meira. Sm\u00e1vegis undrun og \u00f6grun. J\u00e1 og \u00e1st. Mig langa\u00f0i alltaf a\u00f0 vera elsku\u00f0. L\u00edklega er \u00fea\u00f0 eitthva\u00f0 \u00ed \u00fe\u00e1 veruna sem ger\u00f0ist \u00ed hausnum \u00e1 m\u00e9r \u00feegar \u00e9g vakna\u00f0i. \u00c9g hef fundi\u00f0 fyrir \u00feessari undarlegu \u00fer\u00e1 eftir einhverskonar \u00f6rvun, n\u00fdju sj\u00f3narhorni e\u00f0a einhverju sem skekur ver\u00f6ldina og kl\u00ednt tilfinningunni \u00e1 \u00feig. \u00c6 \u00fe\u00fa veist, eldgosafr\u00e9ttir eru bara a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a frekar \u00fereyttar.<\/p>\n
J\u00e1 l\u00edklega var \u00fea\u00f0 bara \u00feannig. Var\u00f0 hugsa\u00f0 til \u00fe\u00edn og mundi st\u00f3ra, hl\u00fdja brosi\u00f0 \u00feitt og kalla\u00f0i \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00f6knu\u00f0. Mundi hvernig \u00fe\u00fa horf\u00f0ir \u00e1 mig af samskonar \u00e1huga og d\u00fdr og sag\u00f0ir\u00a0hva\u00f0 er a\u00f0 gerast \u00ed haunum \u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r n\u00fana?<\/em>\u00a0og fann fyrir \u00f3sk\u00f6p hall\u00e6rislegri nostalg\u00edu. Og fyrir nokkrum \u00e1rum hef\u00f0i \u00e9g sett upp dul\u00fa\u00f0ugt bros og svara\u00f0 \u00fat \u00ed h\u00f6tt e\u00f0a bara kysst \u00feig g\u00f3\u00f0l\u00e1tlega \u00e1 varirnar en \u00ed dag myndir\u00f0u sennilega ekki einu sinni spyrja. \u00c9g g\u00e6ti au\u00f0vita\u00f0 feika\u00f0 en sannleikurinn er s\u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 er n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega ekkert a\u00f0 gerast \u00ed hausnum \u00e1 m\u00e9r. \u00c9g meina ekkert, alls ekkert. \u00cd g\u00e6r \u00e6tla\u00f0i \u00e9g a\u00f0 skrifa lj\u00f3\u00f0 vi\u00f0 lag sem \u00e9g f\u00e9kk sent. \u00c9g ger\u00f0i margar tilraunir en \u00fe\u00e6r ur\u00f0u allar sama lj\u00f3\u00f0 og s\u00ed\u00f0ast, eitthva\u00f0 vo\u00f0a hall\u00e6rislegt um beikitr\u00e9 langt \u00ed burtu, og \u00feegar systir m\u00edn ba\u00f0 mig a\u00f0 \u00fatb\u00faa bor\u00f0kort fyrir fermingarveisluna hans J\u00fal\u00edusar, var \u00fea\u00f0 fyrsta sem m\u00e9r datt \u00ed hug a\u00f0 k\u00f3pera hugmynd sem \u00e9g s\u00e1 einhvernt\u00edma \u00e1 netinu.<\/p>\n \u00dea\u00f0 er r\u00famt \u00e1r s\u00ed\u00f0an \u00e9g flutti til Danmerkur og \u00e1 \u00feessu eina \u00e1ri hefur m\u00e9r tekist a\u00f0 drabbast svo ni\u00f0ur andlega a\u00f0 ef m\u00e9r yr\u00f0i sagt \u00ed dag a\u00f0 eftir m\u00e1nu\u00f0 ver\u00f0i \u00e9g farin a\u00f0 hanga \u00e1 farmville myndi \u00e9g tr\u00faa \u00fev\u00ed. Mig langar ekki einu sinni \u00ed karlmann lengur. H\u00e9lt fyrst a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri bara t\u00edmabundin ge\u00f0veiki en n\u00fa hefur mig ekki langa\u00f0 \u00ed k\u00e6rasta \u00ed n\u00e6stum \u00e1r, e\u00f0a s\u00ed\u00f0an \u00e9g afskrifa\u00f0i gar\u00f0yrkjumanninn \u00ed Gr\u00e1steinshallargar\u00f0inum og svo langur t\u00edmi hefur aldrei li\u00f0i\u00f0 \u00e1\u00f0ur. M.a.s. kynhv\u00f6tin \u00ed m\u00e9r er steindau\u00f0 og snerti\u00fe\u00f6rf m\u00edn sem \u00e1\u00f0ur var n\u00e1nast \u00f3si\u00f0leg er ekki lengur neitt sem tveir kettir r\u00e1\u00f0a ekki vi\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 eru ekki einu sinni hendur \u00fe\u00ednar sem \u00e9g sakna, mig langar bara a\u00f0 tala vi\u00f0 \u00feig, vita af \u00fe\u00e9r n\u00e1l\u00e6gt m\u00e9r.<\/p>\n Kannski er \u00fea\u00f0 bara merki um a\u00f0 einn\u00fe\u00e1 s\u00e9 eitthva\u00f0 \u00ed m\u00e9r lifandi, e\u00f0a \u00fev\u00ed sem n\u00e6st og m\u00e9r datt \u00ed hug a\u00f0 hafa samband vi\u00f0 \u00feig, n\u00e6ra \u00feetta eina merki um a\u00f0 \u00e9g s\u00e9 enn\u00fe\u00e1 til. M\u00e1li\u00f0 er bara a\u00f0 \u00e1 hinn b\u00f3ginn langar mig ekkert \u00ed meiri bl\u00fas.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Vakna\u00f0i \u00ed morgun \u00e1 \u00feessum \u00e6gilega El\u00edasarbl\u00fas. M\u00e9r finnst \u00fea\u00f0 undarlegt \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g hef ekkert hugsa\u00f0 neitt meira til \u00fe\u00edn undanfari\u00f0 en \u00e9g er v\u00f6n og \u00ed augnablikinu eru b\u00e1\u00f0ir str\u00e1karnir m\u00ednir og pabbi h\u00e9rna svo ekki er \u00fea\u00f0 af … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa