\u00deetta er nefnilega ekki bara spurning um hva\u00f0 mann langar a\u00f0 gera, heldur l\u00edka um forsendurnar. \u00de\u00e6r stj\u00f3rna \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 t\u00f6luver\u00f0u leyti hva\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 m\u00e1 kosta \u00feegar upp er sta\u00f0i\u00f0.<\/p>\n
Fyrir m\u00f6rgum \u00e1rum lofa\u00f0i \u00e9g sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a einskis manns hj\u00e1kona. Ekki af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 m\u00e9r finnist \u00fea\u00f0 einhver st\u00f3rsynd heldur vegna \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00e9g t\u00f3k \u00feann pakka \u00fat sext\u00e1n \u00e1ra a\u00f0 aldri og m\u00e9r fannst \u00fea\u00f0 ekki skemmtilegt hlutskipti.<\/p>\n
\u00deegar allt kemur til alls er eina \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0an fyrir \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 mig langar a\u00f0 sofa hj\u00e1 honum s\u00fa a\u00f0 hann elskar mig fr\u00e1 d\u00fdpstu hjartans r\u00f3tum. En \u00fe\u00f3tt m\u00e9r \u00feyki ofur v\u00e6nt um hann yr\u00f0i ekkert vit \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 hlaupa \u00e1 eftir \u00fev\u00ed, \u00fea\u00f0 myndi bara s\u00e6ra hann. Vin\u00e1tta okkar hangir eing\u00f6ngu saman \u00e1 \u00e1st hans \u00e1 m\u00e9r og \u00fe\u00f6rf minni fyrir a\u00f0 vera elsku\u00f0. Og \u00fea\u00f0 er bara \u00fea\u00f0 sem m\u00e9r finnst spennandi vi\u00f0 hugmyndina um a\u00f0 vera me\u00f0 honum; \u00e9g hef nefnilega aldrei sofi\u00f0 hj\u00e1 neinum sem elskar mig og geng me\u00f0 einhverjar r\u00f3mant\u00edskar grillur um a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 hlj\u00f3ti a\u00f0 vera eitthva\u00f0 \u00f6\u00f0ruv\u00edsi og betra. \u00c9g hef nefnilega aldrei veri\u00f0 elsku\u00f0. \u00c9g er ekki a\u00f0 van\u00feakka \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00e9g hef; \u00e9g hef eignast vini, jafnvel s\u00e1luf\u00e9laga, \u00e9g hef noti\u00f0 athygli og vi\u00f0urkenningar, \u00e9g hef aldrei sta\u00f0i\u00f0 alveg ein. En \u00e9g hef ekki veri\u00f0 elsku\u00f0 og \u00fe\u00f3tt margir megi b\u00faa vi\u00f0 harmr\u00e6nni a\u00f0st\u00e6\u00f0ur er \u00fea\u00f0 m\u00e9r l\u00edtil huggun. A\u00f0 lifa vi\u00f0 \u00e1stleysi er \u00e1l\u00edka trag\u00edskt og a\u00f0 vera fatla\u00f0ur. \u00deannig er n\u00fa bara \u00fea\u00f0.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g geri m\u00e9r grein fyrir a\u00f0 \u00feetta hlj\u00f3mar kannski biturlega og a\u00f0 einhverjir sj\u00e1lfskipa\u00f0ir sj\u00e1lfsvir\u00f0ingarpostular hafa lagt bl\u00e1tt bann vi\u00f0 bitur\u00f0. En sannleikurinn \u00e1 \u00fea\u00f0 til a\u00f0 vera bitur og \u00e9g s\u00e9 ekki a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 r\u00e9ttl\u00e6tanlegt a\u00f0 afneita honum \u00feessvegna. \u00deegar allt kemur til alls er \u00e9g v\u00f6nust \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 gera \u00fea\u00f0 sem m\u00e9r bara s\u00fdnist og segja \u00fea\u00f0 sem a\u00f0rir l\u00e1ta s\u00e9r n\u00e6gja a\u00f0 hugsa (svo framarlega sem \u00fea\u00f0 felur ekki \u00ed s\u00e9r pers\u00f3nulegar \u00e1r\u00e1sir) og veruleikinn ska\u00f0ar ekki sj\u00e1lfsvir\u00f0ingu manns nema ma\u00f0ur neiti a\u00f0 b\u00edta \u00ed sig kjark til a\u00f0 horfast \u00ed augu vi\u00f0 hann.<\/p>\n
Svona er \u00feetta bara, hann elskar mig og m\u00e9r finnst \u00fea\u00f0 gott bara vegna \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00fearfnast \u00feess svo s\u00e1rlega en sumt er best a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta \u00ed fri\u00f0i, l\u00e1ta \u00fea\u00f0 vera eins og \u00fea\u00f0 hefur alltaf veri\u00f0. \u00deegar allt kemur til alls er \u00e9g dularfulla bl\u00f3mi\u00f0 \u00ed draumi hins unga manns og \u00e9g dey ef hann vaknar.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00deetta er nefnilega ekki bara spurning um hva\u00f0 mann langar a\u00f0 gera, heldur l\u00edka um forsendurnar. \u00de\u00e6r stj\u00f3rna \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 t\u00f6luver\u00f0u leyti hva\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 m\u00e1 kosta \u00feegar upp er sta\u00f0i\u00f0.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[36,1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1128","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-2-hluti-timavillti-vikingurinn","category-oflokkad-allt-efni"],"yoast_head":"\n