Klukkan a\u00f0 ganga fj\u00f6gur hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r og \u00e9g sem er kv\u00f6ldsv\u00e6f get ekki sofi\u00f0.<\/p>\n
\u00dea\u00f0 er \u00feetta l\u00edk\u2026
\n\u00dearf ekki a\u00f0 gera eitthva\u00f0? Jar\u00f0a \u00fea\u00f0 e\u00f0a eitthva\u00f0?<\/p>\n
Hvernig er eiginlega sta\u00f0i\u00f0 a\u00f0 greftrun \u00fatbur\u00f0ar? Ver\u00f0ur \u00fea\u00f0 sett \u00ed p\u00ednulitla kistu? Hv\u00edta? Grafi\u00f0 \u00ed kyrr\u00feey? Ver\u00f0ur ka\u00fe\u00f3lskur prestur l\u00e1tinn messa yfir \u00fev\u00ed af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 barni\u00f0 fylgir tr\u00faf\u00e9lagi m\u00f3\u00f0ur? Ver\u00f0ur \u00fej\u00f3\u00f0arsorg l\u00fdst yfir? M\u00e9r finnst svo undarlegt a\u00f0 l\u00fdsa yfir sorg, hva\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 \u00ed nafni heillar \u00fej\u00f3\u00f0ar en \u00e9g efast um a\u00f0 jafn margir t\u00e6kju \u00fea\u00f0 jafn n\u00e6rri s\u00e9r ef einhver fr\u00e6gur f\u00e9lli fr\u00e1.<\/p>\n
Hver er annars elska\u00f0asti \u00cdslendingurinn? Hvern myndi \u00fej\u00f3\u00f0in syrgja mest? \u00c6tli Bj\u00f6rk Gu\u00f0mundsd\u00f3ttir yr\u00f0i \u00fej\u00f3\u00f0inni ekki mestur harmdau\u00f0i? VI\u00f0 myndum syrgja hana j\u00fa, \u00e1rei\u00f0anlega. En \u00feetta litla barn, sem vi\u00f0 \u00feekktum ekki og syrgjum \u00fev\u00ed ekki sem pers\u00f3nu, \u00fea\u00f0 l\u00e6tur mig ekki \u00ed fri\u00f0i og harmdau\u00f0i, \u00fea\u00f0 er or\u00f0i\u00f0, \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00fea\u00f0 hafi aldrei unni\u00f0 nein ver\u00f0laun e\u00f0a haldi\u00f0 t\u00f3nleika fyrir n\u00e1tt\u00faruna. Harmdau\u00f0i, \u00fev\u00ed harmr\u00e6nn dau\u00f0dagi \u00feess n\u00edstir og sker.<\/p>\n
Fokk \u00ed helv\u00edti, hva\u00f0 var manneskjan a\u00f0 hugsa? Hugur minn leitar sk\u00fdringa \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00fe\u00e6r f\u00e1ist n\u00fa sj\u00e1lfsagt aldrei. \u00dea\u00f0 er ekki bara hryllingurinn sem angrar mig heldur l\u00edka \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 skilja ekki af hverju. F\u00f3lk gerir stundum hro\u00f0alega hluti, \u00f3r\u00e9ttl\u00e6tanlega hluti sem samt sem \u00e1\u00f0ur eru r\u00f6kr\u00e9ttir. \u00dea\u00f0 hl\u00fdtur andskotinn hafi \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 vera h\u00e6gt a\u00f0 \u00e6tlast til \u00feess af f\u00f3lki a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 eitthvert vit \u00ed svona hryllingsverkum. M.a.s. Hannibal Lechter meikar sens, ekki fyrr en \u00ed Hannibal Rising a\u00f0 v\u00edsu en \u00e1 endanum ur\u00f0um vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 f\u00e1 sk\u00fdringu. \u00c9g meika allavega sens. Ef \u00e9g dr\u00e6pi einhvern g\u00e6ti \u00e9g r\u00f6kstutt \u00fe\u00e1 \u00e1kv\u00f6r\u00f0un. M\u00e9r dettur ekki einu sinni \u00ed hug a\u00f0 elska einhvern nema geta f\u00e6rt pott\u00fe\u00e9tt r\u00f6k fyrir \u00fev\u00ed. H\u00fan hl\u00fdtur a\u00f0 hafa haft einhverja r\u00f6kr\u00e6na \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0u. Dj\u00f6full er \u00e9g ruglu\u00f0. Eins og \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri eitthva\u00f0 sk\u00e1rra \u00fe\u00f3tt h\u00fan g\u00e6ti r\u00f6kstutt \u00fea\u00f0. \u00c9g hl\u00fdt a\u00f0 vera ge\u00f0veik e\u00f0a eitthva\u00f0. Ef \u00e9g v\u00e6ri tr\u00fau\u00f0 myndi \u00e9g sj\u00e1lfsagt r\u00e6\u00f0a \u00feetta vi\u00f0 Gvu\u00f0.<\/p>\n
M\u00f3\u00f0ir m\u00edn \u00ed kv\u00ed kv\u00ed<\/em><\/p>\n Ver\u00f0 a\u00f0 komast \u00fat \u00far \u00feessu draugalj\u00f3\u00f0i. Pr\u00f3fa Mar\u00edu Farrar \u00ed sta\u00f0inn. Or\u00f0agaldur. Lei\u00f0in \u00fat \u00feegar engin sk\u00fdring er r\u00f6kr\u00e9tt. Lj\u00f3\u00f0 e\u00f0a b\u00e6n e\u00f0a galdur, \u00feetta er allt sama t\u00f3baki\u00f0, bara a\u00f0fer\u00f0 til a\u00f0 d\u00edla vi\u00f0 rugli\u00f0 \u00ed hausnum \u00e1 s\u00e9r. Sumir halla s\u00e9r a\u00f0 Gvu\u00f0i, \u00e9g halla m\u00e9r a\u00f0 J\u00f3hannesi e\u00f0a Halld\u00f3ri, er \u00fea\u00f0 ekki n\u00e6stum eins? Og \u00fe\u00f3 er \u00feetta illa ort kv\u00e6\u00f0i (og hann sem annars orti svo \u00e1kaflega vel) en \u00e9g kann bara ekkert sem \u00e1 betur vi\u00f0 \u00ed augnablikinu:<\/p>\n En gri\u00f0a bi\u00f0 \u00e9g herra af ykkur hinum Miskunnsemin var fundin upp til a\u00f0 koma rei\u00f0u \u00e1 ver\u00f6ldina \u00feegar ekkert sem vi\u00f0 hugsanlega g\u00e6tum gert myndi fulln\u00e6gja r\u00e9ttl\u00e6tinu hvort sem er. Hann bi\u00f0ur henni gri\u00f0a er \u00fea\u00f0 ekki \u00f6rugglega? Ekki forl\u00e1ts? Nei ekki forl\u00e1ts, \u00fea\u00f0 gengi heldur ekkert upp. F\u00f3lk skilur \u00fea\u00f0 ekki en \u00fea\u00f0 er regin munur \u00e1 \u00feessu tvennu.<\/p>\n En \u00fea\u00f0 er ekki bara \u00feessi litli drengur me\u00f0 skur\u00f0ina \u00ed andlitinu. \u00dea\u00f0 eru l\u00edka \u00f6ll hin sem \u00fev\u00e6last fyrir m\u00e9r. \u00deessi sem m\u00e1 alveg sl\u00edta \u00ed t\u00e6tlur og henda \u00ed rusli\u00f0, ekki af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 mamman s\u00e9 veik \u00e1 ge\u00f0inu, ekki einu sinni af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 h\u00fan s\u00e9 nau\u00f0st\u00f6dd heldur af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 h\u00fan er ekki \u2019tilb\u00fain\u2019. \u00dea\u00f0 er allt \u00ed lagi a\u00f0 fleygja \u00feeim \u00ed rusli\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed \u00feau eru bara 12 vikna og ekki \u2018or\u00f0in a\u00f0 neinu\u2019 enn\u00fe\u00e1. Og svo \u00feessi 20 vikna e\u00f0a 22ja vikna sem v\u00e6ru l\u00f6ngu \u2018or\u00f0in a\u00f0 einhverju\u2019 ef \u00feau v\u00e6ru ekki me\u00f0 litningagalla e\u00f0a l\u00edkur \u00e1 einhverri annarri f\u00f6tlun. Mismunun heilbrig\u00f0ra og fatla\u00f0ra hefst \u00ed m\u00f3\u00f0urkvi\u00f0i og vi\u00f0 teljum okkur si\u00f0menntu\u00f0.<\/p>\n \u00d6ll \u00feessi ponkulitlu l\u00edk. E\u00f0a l\u00edkt\u00e6gjur \u00f6llu heldur. \u00dea\u00f0 kemur engin l\u00f6gga og fiskar flyksurnar af \u00feeim upp \u00far ruslinu og enginn leggur l\u00edtinn bangsa vi\u00f0 anddyri Lansans \u00ed minningu \u00feeirra. Hva\u00f0 f\u00f3ru m\u00f6rg \u00ed dag? \u00derj\u00fa? E\u00f0a fj\u00f6gur?<\/p>\n Hva\u00f0 er annars gert vi\u00f0 \u00feau? Er \u00feeim hent \u00ed hv\u00edta plastf\u00f6tu e\u00f0a kannski kremgula og kemur svo kona me\u00f0 latexhanska og gr\u00e6na svuntu og sturtar \u00far f\u00f6tunni \u00ed einhverskonar brennsluofn sem er fullur af skemmdum h\u00e1lskirtlum, botnl\u00f6ngum og puttum sem hafa lent \u00ed v\u00e9ls\u00f6g? F\u00e6r h\u00fan greitt \u00f3hreininda\u00e1lag? Og \u00fev\u00e6r h\u00fan svo f\u00f6tuna og fer me\u00f0 hana inn aftur fyrir n\u00e6stu a\u00f0ger\u00f0?<\/p>\n E\u00f0a eru \u00feau sett \u00ed gr\u00e1a plastpoka og hent \u00ed ruslag\u00e1m?<\/p>\n V\u00e6ri ekki einum of langt gengi\u00f0 a\u00f0 ey\u00f0a n\u00f3ttinni \u00ed a\u00f0 yrkja \u00fatbur\u00f0arkv\u00e6\u00f0i? \u00datfarars\u00e1lm kannski? Af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 einhvernveginn kemur manni \u00fea\u00f0 vi\u00f0.<\/p>\n E\u00f0a ver\u00f0ur kannski engin \u00fatf\u00f6r?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Klukkan a\u00f0 ganga fj\u00f6gur hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r og \u00e9g sem er kv\u00f6ldsv\u00e6f get ekki sofi\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 er \u00feetta l\u00edk\u2026 \u00dearf ekki a\u00f0 gera eitthva\u00f0? Jar\u00f0a \u00fea\u00f0 e\u00f0a eitthva\u00f0? Hvernig er eiginlega sta\u00f0i\u00f0 a\u00f0 greftrun \u00fatbur\u00f0ar? Ver\u00f0ur \u00fea\u00f0 sett \u00ed p\u00ednulitla kistu? … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa
\n\u00fev\u00ed hva\u00f0 er l\u00edf \u00e1n samhj\u00e1lpar fr\u00e1 vinum?<\/em><\/p>\n