Martra\u00f0ir bernsku minnar snerust um hyld\u00fdpi. A\u00f0 detta fram af bj\u00f6rgum, ni\u00f0ur um holr\u00e6si, ofan \u00ed skur\u00f0. \u00cd draumunum voru mamma m\u00edn og amma alltaf n\u00e1l\u00e6gar en \u00fe\u00e6r bj\u00f6rgu\u00f0u m\u00e9r ekki. Stundum \u00fdttu \u00fe\u00e6r m\u00e9r fram af br\u00faninni. \u00c9g vakna\u00f0i hlj\u00f3\u00f0andi og kaldsveitt en neita\u00f0i a\u00f0 tj\u00e1 mig um efni martra\u00f0arinnar.<\/p>\n
Enn \u00ed dag dreymir mig hengiflug \u00feegar \u00e9g er undir \u00e1lagi en \u00e1 fullor\u00f0ins\u00e1rum er \u00e9g ein \u00ed draumnum og yfirleitt \u00e1 miklum hra\u00f0a. \u00c9g missi stj\u00f3rn \u00e1 b\u00edl og hann fl\u00fdgur fram af hengiflugi e\u00f0a br\u00fa e\u00f0a \u00e9g r\u00ed\u00f0 hesti sem skyndilega h\u00e6ttir a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta a\u00f0 stj\u00f3rn og ve\u00f0ur me\u00f0 mig fram af bjargbr\u00fan e\u00f0a ofan \u00ed gj\u00e1.<\/p>\n
Kannski eiga \u00feessir draumar r\u00e6tur a\u00f0 rekja til \u00e1falls e\u00f0a reynslu sem haf\u00f0i dj\u00fapst\u00e6\u00f0 \u00e1hrif \u00e1 mig. Allavega datt m\u00e9r \u00fea\u00f0 \u00ed hug \u00feegar m\u00f3\u00f0ir m\u00edn sag\u00f0i m\u00e9r fr\u00e1 atviki sem \u00e9g mundi ekki eftir enda l\u00edklega of l\u00edtil \u00feegar \u00fea\u00f0 \u00e1tti s\u00e9r sta\u00f0 til a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 raunh\u00e6ft a\u00f0 \u00e9g muni eftir \u00fev\u00ed.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g var l\u00edklega t\u00e6pra tveggja \u00e1ra.\u00a0 Vi\u00f0 bjuggum \u00ed kjallara\u00edb\u00fa\u00f0 \u00ed blokk. \u00d6mmu og m\u00f6mmu haf\u00f0i or\u00f0i\u00f0 sunduror\u00f0a. Mamma t\u00f3k mig \u00ed fangi\u00f0,\u00a0 gekk upp \u00e1 n\u00e6stu h\u00e6\u00f0, sag\u00f0ist \u00e6tla til vinkonu sinnar sem bj\u00f3 \u00fear\u00a0 og tilkynnti \u00f6mmu a\u00f0 samtalinu v\u00e6ri loki\u00f0. Amma s\u00e6tti sig ekki vi\u00f0 \u00feau skilabo\u00f0 og kom upp \u00e1 eftir henni. Amma t\u00f3k mig \u00ed fangi\u00f0. \u00c9g var \u00e6gileg \u00f6mmustelpa og hef sennilega s\u00f3st eftir \u00fev\u00ed sj\u00e1lf. \u00c9g sat \u00e1 mj\u00f6\u00f0m \u00f6mmu minnar og \u00fear sem \u00fe\u00e6r st\u00f3\u00f0u \u00fearna \u00e1 stigapallinum f\u00f3ru \u00fe\u00e6r a\u00f0 hnakkr\u00edfast. \u00c9g horf\u00f0i ni\u00f0ur \u00ed hyld\u00fdpi\u00f0 fyrir ne\u00f0an og f\u00f3r a\u00f0 orga. Kannski hr\u00e6ddist \u00e9g rei\u00f0ilegar raddir \u00feeirra, kannski var \u00e9g hr\u00e6dd um a\u00f0 detta. L\u00edklega hvorttveggja.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g mundi ekkert eftir \u00feessu fyrr en mamma f\u00f3r a\u00f0 tala um \u00feetta en \u00fe\u00e1 rifja\u00f0ist \u00fea\u00f0 upp og seinna var\u00f0 minningin lj\u00f3slifandi. \u00c9g s\u00e9 fyrir m\u00e9r sandbl\u00e1si\u00f0 gleri\u00f0 \u00ed \u00fatidyrahur\u00f0inni, rautt teppi\u00f0 \u00e1 stiganum, s\u00e9 m\u00f6mmu standa n\u00e6r tr\u00f6ppunum me\u00f0 h\u00e1ri\u00f0 greitt \u00ed tagl. Amma er \u00ed lo\u00f0nu, sv\u00f6rtu og hv\u00edtu k\u00e1punni sinni og \u00e9g gr\u00edp litlu h\u00f6ndunum m\u00ednum \u00ed mj\u00fakt gerviefni\u00f0. Annar f\u00f3turinn \u00e1 m\u00e9r nemur vi\u00f0 stigahandri\u00f0i\u00f0 og \u00e9g horfi ni\u00f0ur \u00e1 kjallarag\u00f3lfi\u00f0. \u00dea\u00f0 er dimmt \u00fearna ni\u00f0ri.<\/p>\n
Minningin er raunveruleg. \u00c9g greini engan mun \u00e1 henni og \u00f6\u00f0rum bernskuminningum m\u00ednum fr\u00e1 blokkinni \u00ed Efstalandinu. Samt stenst h\u00fan ekki.<\/p>\n
Ef amma kom upp \u00e1 eftir m\u00f6mmu hefur h\u00fan sennilega sta\u00f0i\u00f0 n\u00e6r stiganum. \u00dea\u00f0 \u00fearf ekki endilega a\u00f0 vera, \u00fev\u00ed f\u00f3lk er f\u00e6ranlegt og ef \u00feetta v\u00e6ri \u00fea\u00f0 eina, try\u00f0i \u00e9g sennilega minningunni. En \u00fea\u00f0 er fleira. Rau\u00f0a teppi\u00f0 var \u00e1 stofunni heima, ekki stigagangnum. Fr\u00e1 stigapallinum er \u00fatiloka\u00f0 a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 \u00fatidyrnar me\u00f0 sandbl\u00e1sna glerinu. Og k\u00e1pan sem amma var \u00ed, hana eigna\u00f0ist h\u00fan m\u00f6rgum \u00e1rum s\u00ed\u00f0ar.<\/p>\n
Sennilega upplif\u00f0i \u00e9g h\u00e1va\u00f0arifrildi \u00e1 stigapalli og tengdi \u00fea\u00f0 \u00f3ttanum um a\u00f0 detta. Kannski haf\u00f0i \u00fea\u00f0 mikil \u00e1hrif \u00e1 mig. Kannski hef\u00f0i \u00e9g muna\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 \u00ed alv\u00f6ru ef \u00e9g hef\u00f0i veri\u00f0 \u00e1rinu eldri e\u00f0a bara h\u00e1lfu \u00e1ri eldri.<\/p>\n
En \u00e9g man \u00fea\u00f0 ekki. Ekki atviki\u00f0 sj\u00e1lft. Minningin, svo greinileg og lifandi sem h\u00fan er, er sk\u00f6pu\u00f0 s\u00ed\u00f0ar. Kannski blundar raunverulega minningin einhverssta\u00f0ar dj\u00fapt \u00ed afkimum s\u00e1larinnar og kannski er anna\u00f0 gleymt atvik \u00e1 bak vi\u00f0 drauminn um a\u00f0 missa stj\u00f3rn \u00e1 b\u00edl. E\u00f0a kannski \u00e1 s\u00e1 draumur r\u00e6tur a\u00f0 rekja til annars atviks sem \u00e9g hef aldrei gleymt, \u00feegar \u00e9g um \u00feriggja \u00e1ra aldurinn, tr\u00f3\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00e1 milli frams\u00e6tanna \u00ed bl\u00e1a Volkswagenb\u00edlnum, greip \u00ed st\u00fdri\u00f0 og \u00f3k b\u00edlnum \u00fat \u00ed skur\u00f0. \u00c9g man a\u00f0 \u00e9g greip \u00ed st\u00fdri\u00f0 en \u00e9g man ekki hvernig b\u00edllinn f\u00f3r \u00fat af veginum og ofan \u00ed skur\u00f0. Hinsvegar man \u00e9g vel eftir gula kranab\u00edlnum sem kom og dr\u00f3 hann upp. Man a\u00f0 mamma var a\u00f0 tala vi\u00f0 mann og \u00fea\u00f0 var mj\u00f6g f\u00ednger\u00f0ur rigningar\u00fa\u00f0i. \u00c9g st\u00f3\u00f0 vi\u00f0 hli\u00f0ina \u00e1 henni og h\u00e9lt \u00ed drapplitu \u00falpuna hennar. \u00dea\u00f0 var gylltur hringur \u00e1 rennil\u00e1snum \u00e1 vasanum og \u00e9g fylgdist me\u00f0 st\u00f3ra, gula kranab\u00edlnum draga litla, bl\u00e1a b\u00edlinn okkar upp \u00far skur\u00f0inum.<\/p>\n
Kannski g\u00e6ti \u00e9g rifja\u00f0 upp hvernig b\u00edllinn f\u00f3r \u00fat af veginum. Kannski g\u00e6ti \u00e9g l\u00edka rifja\u00f0 upp \u00fea\u00f0 sem raunverulega ger\u00f0ist \u00e1 stigapallinum. \u00c9g veit \u00fea\u00f0 ekki og kannski er engin lei\u00f0 til a\u00f0 meta hven\u00e6r minning er raunveruleg og hven\u00e6r ekki. Hitt veit \u00e9g a\u00f0 \u00e9g, sem \u00e1 annars frekar erfitt me\u00f0 myndr\u00e6na hugsun og s\u00e9 t.d. fyrir m\u00e9r skugga og \u00fatl\u00ednur frekar en n\u00e1kv\u00e6mar myndir af f\u00f3lk og st\u00f6\u00f0um \u00feegar \u00e9g les, get rifja\u00f0 upp \u00ed sm\u00e1atri\u00f0um atbur\u00f0i sem er \u00fatiloka\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00e9g muni eftir, jafnvel atvik sem \u00e9g var\u00f0 \u00f6ruggelega ekki vitni a\u00f0. \u00c9g \u00e1 m\u00e9r n\u00e1kv\u00e6mar, lifandi minningar um avik sem \u00e9g s\u00e1 ekki.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g s\u00e1 aldrei kranab\u00edlinn \u00fe\u00f3tt minningin s\u00e9 lj\u00f3slifandi \u00fev\u00ed \u00feegar kranab\u00edllinn kom var \u00e9g l\u00f6ngu farin upp \u00e1 sp\u00edtala \u00ed sko\u00f0un. Mig r\u00e1mar l\u00edka \u00ed l\u00e6kninn sem \u00fereifa\u00f0i \u00e1 m\u00e9r og komst a\u00f0 \u00feeirri ni\u00f0urst\u00f6\u00f0u a\u00f0 \u00e9g hef\u00f0i sloppi\u00f0 \u00f3meidd en minningin um gula kranab\u00edlinn er \u00fe\u00f3 greinilegri.<\/p>\n
\u00deessi atvik, sem \u00e9g man svo greinilega eru d\u00e6mi um falskar minningar. Minnisranns\u00f3knir s\u00fdna a\u00f0 falskar minningar eru algengar og n\u00e1kv\u00e6m l\u00fdsing vitna \u00e1 atvikum er ekki \u00e1rei\u00f0anleg heimild um \u00fea\u00f0 sem ger\u00f0ist. Samt sem \u00e1\u00f0ur r\u00e6\u00f0ur frambur\u00f0ur vitna oft \u00farslitum um ni\u00f0urst\u00f6\u00f0u d\u00f3msm\u00e1la<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Martra\u00f0ir bernsku minnar snerust um hyld\u00fdpi. A\u00f0 detta fram af bj\u00f6rgum, ni\u00f0ur um holr\u00e6si, ofan \u00ed skur\u00f0. \u00cd draumunum voru mamma m\u00edn og amma alltaf n\u00e1l\u00e6gar en \u00fe\u00e6r bj\u00f6rgu\u00f0u m\u00e9r ekki. Stundum \u00fdttu \u00fe\u00e6r m\u00e9r fram af br\u00faninni. \u00c9g vakna\u00f0i … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa