\u00dea\u00f0 var \u00ed sj\u00e1lfu s\u00e9r \u00fe\u00e6gilegt en samt afskaplega l\u00edti\u00f0 spennandi a\u00f0 alast upp \u00e1 t\u00edmum kalda str\u00ed\u00f0sins. St\u00f6\u00f0ug \u00f3gn yfirvofandi en samt ekkert str\u00ed\u00f0 e\u00f0a \u00f6nnur \u00e1f\u00f6ll til a\u00f0 m\u00f3tm\u00e6la og mynda samst\u00f6\u00f0u um, enginn sameiginlegur \u00f3vinur, \u00ed rauninni engin p\u00f3lit\u00edsk afsta\u00f0a sem ungmenni g\u00e1tu fylkt s\u00e9r um og skapa\u00f0 \u201ccult\u201d \u00ed kringum. P\u00f6nki\u00f0 var loftb\u00f3la, sem n\u00e1\u00f0i a\u00f0eins til fj\u00f6ldans \u00ed formi hunda\u00f3la og hanakamba, afar f\u00e1ir h\u00f6f\u00f0u minnsta \u00e1huga \u00e1 anarkisma. Eina p\u00f3lt\u00edska vakningin sem \u00e9g man eftir var (a\u00f0 mig minnir) 1983, \u00feegar vi\u00f0 \u00fer\u00f6mmu\u00f0um Laugaveginn og kr\u00f6f\u00f0umst framt\u00ed\u00f0ar. \u00dea\u00f0 var m\u00e1ttlaus tilraun og gleymdist flj\u00f3tt.<\/p>\n
\u00der\u00e1tt fyrir \u00feennan do\u00f0a orti \u00e9g \u00feindarlaust um illsku mannanna (s\u00e9rstaklega stj\u00f3rnm\u00e1lamanna), hverfulleik g\u00e6funnar, n\u00e1l\u00e6g\u00f0 heimsendis og tilgangsleysi l\u00edfsins. Hef\u00f0i sennilega veri\u00f0 rei\u00f0ub\u00fain til a\u00f0 raka af m\u00e9r allt h\u00e1ri\u00f0 (og tr\u00fai\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00fea\u00f0 hef\u00f0i veri\u00f0 mikil f\u00f3rn \u00ed m\u00ednum huga) fyrir a\u00f0 hafa ort \u201cVei vei, yfir hinni f\u00f6llnu borg\u201d. Opinberun J\u00f3hannesar var m\u00e9r st\u00f6\u00f0ug uppspretta p\u00f3lit\u00edskra lj\u00f3\u00f0a, sem fl\u00e6ddu \u00ed tugatali fram \u00far blekpennanum m\u00ednum, \u00e1 Mokka, \u00fear sem \u00e9g eyddi eftirmi\u00f0deginum, m\u00e6nandi hundslegum a\u00f0d\u00e1unaraugum \u00e1 Illuga J\u00f6kulsson, sem aldrei var\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 \u00e1 a\u00f0 l\u00edta \u00ed \u00e1ttina til m\u00edn og hefur sennilega ekki enn \u00ed dag, minnsta grun um hrifningu m\u00edna. \u00deetta voru afskaplega innihaldsr\u00edk og dj\u00faps\u00e6 lj\u00f3\u00f0 og \u00fe\u00f3 umfram allt l\u00f6ng.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g var \u00e1 17. \u00e1ri \u00feegar \u00e9g taldi t\u00edmab\u00e6rt a\u00f0 lofa alheiminum a\u00f0 nj\u00f3ta hinna st\u00f3rbrotnu ritverka minna og lag\u00f0i lei\u00f0 m\u00edna til Kristj\u00e1ns Gu\u00f0mundssonar listm\u00e1lara og fyrrum n\u00e1granna m\u00edns \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed skini a\u00f0 f\u00e1 \u00fea\u00f0 mat sta\u00f0fest. \u00c9g bar talsver\u00f0a vir\u00f0ingu fyrir Kristj\u00e1ni sem haf\u00f0i reki\u00f0 ford\u00f3ma m\u00edna gagnvart n\u00fat\u00edmalist \u00f6fuga ni\u00f0ur \u00ed koki\u00f0 \u00e1 m\u00e9r um 13 \u00e1ra aldurinn, en aukinheldur var hann eina listamannsnefnan sem \u00e9g \u00feekkti n\u00f3gu vel til a\u00f0 \u00feora a\u00f0 banka upp \u00e1 hj\u00e1 me\u00f0 hi\u00f0 mikla og gl\u00e6silega lj\u00f3\u00f0asafn mitt. Fj\u00f6lskyldan sat vi\u00f0 matbor\u00f0i\u00f0 \u00feegar mig bar a\u00f0 gar\u00f0i. Kristj\u00e1n t\u00f3k m\u00e9r vel og bau\u00f0 m\u00e9r grj\u00f3nagraut og s\u00fart sl\u00e1tur sem \u00e9g af\u00feakka\u00f0i \u00e1 \u00feeirri upplognu forsendu a\u00f0 \u00e9g v\u00e6ri n\u00fdb\u00fain a\u00f0 bor\u00f0a. Kristj\u00e1n k\u00edmdi vi\u00f0 og \u00e9g f\u00e9kk svona \u00e1 tilfinninguna a\u00f0 hann v\u00e6ri fullkomlega me\u00f0vita\u00f0ur um \u00f3beit m\u00edna \u00e1 s\u00faru sl\u00e1tri og \u00e1liti sl\u00edka matvendni merki um fullkominn sm\u00e1borgarah\u00e1tt. A\u00f0 v\u00edsu haf\u00f0i \u00e9g a\u00f0eins \u00f3lj\u00f3sa hugmynd um hva\u00f0 sm\u00e1borgarah\u00e1ttur merkti, en \u00fea\u00f0 var allavega ekki heppilegt fyrir listamann a\u00f0 hlj\u00f3ta \u00feann stimpil. Hva\u00f0 um \u00fea\u00f0, Kristj\u00e1n \u00e1t sitt s\u00fara sl\u00e1tur og kom svo loksins inn \u00ed stofu til m\u00edn og f\u00e6r\u00f0i m\u00e9r kaffibolla sem \u00e9g kunni \u00f6llu betur a\u00f0 meta.<\/p>\n
Kristj\u00e1n var ekkert uppnuminn yfir \u00feeim hei\u00f0ri a\u00f0 f\u00e1 a\u00f0 gagnr\u00fdna lj\u00f3\u00f0in m\u00edn fyrstur manna. Hann lag\u00f0i \u00e1herslu \u00e1 a\u00f0 hann v\u00e6ri myndlistarma\u00f0ur og hef\u00f0i ekki miki\u00f0 vit \u00e1 sk\u00e1ldskap. \u00c9g var aftur \u00e1 m\u00f3ti komin til a\u00f0 f\u00e1 \u00e1lit hans en ekki endilega \u201cvit\u201d og heimta\u00f0i a\u00f0 hann l\u00e6si herlegheitin og g\u00e6fi m\u00e9r hei\u00f0arlegt svar. Hvers vegna \u00ed \u00f3sk\u00f6punum \u00e9g \u00fe\u00f3ttist vilja hei\u00f0arlegt svar er m\u00e9r hulin r\u00e1\u00f0g\u00e1ta, \u00fea\u00f0 var alls ekki \u00fea\u00f0 sem \u00e9g vildi, \u00e9g vildi hr\u00f3s og miki\u00f0 af \u00fev\u00ed. En m\u00e1larinn t\u00f3k mig \u00e1 or\u00f0inu og eftir \u00e1 a\u00f0 hyggja hefur \u00fea\u00f0 n\u00fa sennilega gagnast m\u00e9r meira en tilefnislausir gullhamrar.<\/p>\n
Kristj\u00e1n renndi \u00ed snarheitum gegnum hi\u00f0 mikla ritsafn \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 reka upp svo miki\u00f0 sem eitt fagna\u00f0ar\u00f3p. M\u00e9r til mikillar undrunar sag\u00f0i hann ekkert \u00ed \u00fe\u00e1 veruna a\u00f0 m\u00e9r b\u00e6ri si\u00f0fer\u00f0ileg skylda til a\u00f0 f\u00e1 \u00feessi st\u00f3rvirki \u00fatgefin, heldur t\u00f3k hann \u00fat 12 lj\u00f3\u00f0 (ekki neitt rosalega l\u00f6ng) og sag\u00f0i „\u00feetta getur\u00f0u kannski nota\u00f0 eitthva\u00f0, ekki henda \u00feessum“ og tv\u00f6 til vi\u00f0b\u00f3tar sem hann sag\u00f0i a\u00f0 v\u00e6ru „alveg \u00e1g\u00e6t“. Ekki \u00fevarr undrun m\u00edn, \u00feegar \u00e9g f\u00f3r a\u00f0 sko\u00f0a hin \u00fatv\u00f6ldu lj\u00f3\u00f0 og komst a\u00f0 raun um a\u00f0 me\u00f0al \u00feeirra var ekki eitt einasta af \u00feeim n\u00edstandi heims\u00f3s\u00f3ma og \u00e1deilulj\u00f3\u00f0um sem andinn haf\u00f0i bl\u00e1si\u00f0 m\u00e9r \u00ed brj\u00f3st sumari\u00f0 \u00e1\u00f0ur. A\u00f0 undanskildu einu \u00f6rstuttu \u00e1starlj\u00f3\u00f0i sem \u00e9g haf\u00f0i skrifa\u00f0 me\u00f0 Illuga J\u00f6kulsson \u00ed huga (en tileinka\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1verandi k\u00e6rasta \u00ed hr\u00e6snisfullri vi\u00f0leitni til a\u00f0 lj\u00faga \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00e9g v\u00e6ri b\u00e6\u00f0i heilsteyptur karakter og g\u00f3\u00f0 stelpa) og tveimur n\u00fdlegum n\u00e1tt\u00farustemmingarlj\u00f3\u00f0um, voru \u00f6ll lj\u00f3\u00f0in sem Kristj\u00e1n taldi \u00feess vir\u00f0i a\u00f0 geyma \u00feau g\u00f6mul. Sum meira a\u00f0 segja eldg\u00f6mul \u00e1 m\u00e6likvar\u00f0a \u00feess sem er n\u00e6stum 17 \u00e1ra.<\/p>\n
Andartak tr\u00fa\u00f0i \u00e9g varla m\u00ednum eigin augum. En \u00e9g var flj\u00f3t a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 samhengi\u00f0. Lj\u00f3\u00f0in sem Kristj\u00e1n valdi voru a\u00f0 v\u00edsu fremur snau\u00f0 af bo\u00f0skap og merkingu en \u00feau voru myndr\u00e6n. Hann, myndlistarma\u00f0urinn haf\u00f0i au\u00f0vita\u00f0 s\u00e1ral\u00edti\u00f0 vit \u00e1 sk\u00e1ldskap og valdi e\u00f0lilega \u00feau lj\u00f3\u00f0 sem voru hva\u00f0 l\u00edkust hans s\u00e9rsvi\u00f0i. \u00c9g benti honum \u00e1 \u00feetta, vitanlega eins kurteisislega og \u00e9g haf\u00f0i kunn\u00e1ttu til. M\u00e1larinn kinka\u00f0i kolli. „\u00dea\u00f0 er r\u00e9tt hj\u00e1 \u00fe\u00e9r, \u00fea\u00f0 eru \u00feessi lj\u00f3\u00f0 sem s\u00fdna a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00fa getur dregi\u00f0 upp g\u00f3\u00f0ar myndir“ sag\u00f0i hann, horf\u00f0i svo hlj\u00f3\u00f0ur \u00ed augu m\u00edn litla stund og b\u00e6tti vi\u00f0; „en \u00fe\u00fa ver\u00f0ur aldrei sk\u00e1ld, ef \u00fe\u00fa getur ekki \u00e9ti\u00f0 s\u00fart sl\u00e1tur.“<\/p>\n
„\u00c9g skil“ sag\u00f0i \u00e9g og skildi ekki rassgat. \u00dea\u00f0 var ekki fyrr en tveimur \u00e1rum s\u00ed\u00f0ar, \u00feegar \u00e9g loksins fleyg\u00f0i megninu af lj\u00f3\u00f0asafninu \u00ed flutningum, sem rann skyndilega upp fyrir m\u00e9r a\u00f0 hann haf\u00f0i alltso EKKI \u00e1tt vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 sannir listamenn \u00feurfi alltaf a\u00f0 gera r\u00e1\u00f0 fyrir blankheitum.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00dea\u00f0 var \u00ed sj\u00e1lfu s\u00e9r \u00fe\u00e6gilegt en samt afskaplega l\u00edti\u00f0 spennandi a\u00f0 alast upp \u00e1 t\u00edmum kalda str\u00ed\u00f0sins. St\u00f6\u00f0ug \u00f3gn yfirvofandi en samt ekkert str\u00ed\u00f0 e\u00f0a \u00f6nnur \u00e1f\u00f6ll til a\u00f0 m\u00f3tm\u00e6la og mynda samst\u00f6\u00f0u um, enginn sameiginlegur \u00f3vinur, \u00ed rauninni … Halda \u00e1fram a\u00f0 lesa